"can I take a gap... life?"
University applications are looming once again and this time the headache if for real. I can no longer just talk about what I MIGHT do, because this time I actually have to decide what I WILL do.
Mulled over this during lit lecture with Baobi just now and the reality of the situation hit me that I may not be all that cut out for law school as I thought I am. Sure I’ve got the interest and the passion given my family background, but I think I need to consider if I am truly cut out for it. I think there’s a fine line between wanting to do something and actually being able to something?
I was also reminded of how at the height of my university course research phase last year, I developed an interest in political science when I realized that it really seems to suit my academic interests. I put that on my list of possible courses (a very short one, I must admit), but law eventually shoved everything else off the list. The problem with political science is that the colleges that appear worth studying it at are in the US. And I definitely need a scholarship for that. Judging by my current grades, realistically speaking, I’m nowhere near scholar-material.
Anyway I went home and talked to dad and bro, and I feel a little better now. My dad's incredibly zen, my brother's an insightful joke. And stuff my sis told me last time is comforting. I know I've got my family :>
But I’m still just so scared. Nothing has really worked out for me this year, I’m so worried that I will disappoint everyone with my As, and I don’t want to have made the wrong choice with my uni apps on top of all of these. I’m so really really terrified right now.
(I hope this place is as private as I think it is, I think I'll friends lock some posts)
Mulled over this during lit lecture with Baobi just now and the reality of the situation hit me that I may not be all that cut out for law school as I thought I am. Sure I’ve got the interest and the passion given my family background, but I think I need to consider if I am truly cut out for it. I think there’s a fine line between wanting to do something and actually being able to something?
I was also reminded of how at the height of my university course research phase last year, I developed an interest in political science when I realized that it really seems to suit my academic interests. I put that on my list of possible courses (a very short one, I must admit), but law eventually shoved everything else off the list. The problem with political science is that the colleges that appear worth studying it at are in the US. And I definitely need a scholarship for that. Judging by my current grades, realistically speaking, I’m nowhere near scholar-material.
Anyway I went home and talked to dad and bro, and I feel a little better now. My dad's incredibly zen, my brother's an insightful joke. And stuff my sis told me last time is comforting. I know I've got my family :>
But I’m still just so scared. Nothing has really worked out for me this year, I’m so worried that I will disappoint everyone with my As, and I don’t want to have made the wrong choice with my uni apps on top of all of these. I’m so really really terrified right now.
(I hope this place is as private as I think it is, I think I'll friends lock some posts)