So these last few days have been very uneventful. Except that some stupid mother fucker decided to drag my name into some bullshit. Yea. I was sooooo pissed when I heard from Michael that someone (who we dont know yet) drug my name into some really bad stuff with Michael. So yea. We dont know who did it and I dont even know all the details, but ( Read more... )

I'm so so very stupid. I like bombed my test in mils. I mean I passed but it was so horrible that I might as well have bombed it. Just another thing to add onto my list of things that have gone wrong within the last 24 hours. I seriously am getting more and more depressed! And frickin, Mike called this morning and I swear! I dont think he ( Read more... )

Sometimes it is the simple things in life that make me happy. This weekend I am going to be doing DNC for the ROTC at the UofL homecoming game. DNC=Drills and Ceremonies. I walk out onto the field with a sharp saber and then present the sabers (create the arch with the sabers). Yea! I am excited. It is the homecoming game and I am gonna be in it. I ( Read more... )

Why am I the one who feels bad for things I have no control over? I want to be able to take care of the problem. But I can't control it. There is nothing for me to do. NOT a damn thing that I can do to change the situation. It sucks to feel like I am to blame. I'm just over sensitive right now I guess, with Michael being gone.

On top of that I am ( Read more... )

I was doing good today until Michael called. I wanted him to call so bad but it ended up making me so upset and so frustrated I couldn't keep talking to him. I was cleaning up the apartment and getting everything squared away so I could get other stuff done. But he called and it made everything worse. I had finally taken my mind off of him and off ( Read more... )

So Michael made this little video for me. And I have been holding on to it for awhile so that I could watch when I really needed it. Last night I got depressed because well he told me he wouldn't be able to call me for a few days. So I watched it. And then I played it again and fell asleep to Michael talking to me...I miss him so much. This sucks. ( Read more... )

Now that I have been to class and am sort of a bit more awake...I am frustrated by Michael. I know he means well and he wants to buy me a ton of stuff because he want's me to know he cares. But I am sitting here because I have no money to go get food, no food cuz I've already eatten it all. And I don't think he realizes that I am that broke...My ( Read more... )

So I got a second call from Michael last night. This time he got to stay on with me for about 21 minutes and 54 seconds....not that I was counting or anything. But he had landed in Iraq like 7 hours before he got to call me. Which was kinda poopy. I am really missing him. But he says that they have this really cool blanket shop over there and what ( Read more... )

I got my first phone call from Michael...it lasted all of ten seconds. Hopefully he will call me back again soon. They were forming up so he had to go. But it made me cry so much. I miss him!

Yesterday I left Michael at the motorpool. Now he is headed to Iraq. I am really upset by it all. Yesterday I cried the whole way home and was really too depressed to do anything. I did go get my new driver's license with my new last name on it. Totally cool, because the picture doesn't look like a mug shot. But other than that I have been really ( Read more... )