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[yohanna_chan]

Night…
School is killing me right now. I’m behind and with the new course started I have loads of stuff to do… and since I’m apparently f*cking stupid right now, you can guess how it’s going >.<
It’s all blank in my head when I study… I have no idea what to write and it’s just taking out its toll.

My boyfriend is sleeping so I’m all alone with

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[jenbowie]

You are far from stupid. Every time we have talked (either via PM or comment) you have always impressed me with how well-spoken you were, how thoughtful your statements were, and more. A stupid person would not be going from Swedish to English to Japanese and back again.

Sounds like you are feeling a little overwhelmed with school and life right now. Perhaps consider taking a little break here and there? One less class a semester? Or just take a "skip day" - skip out on homework and run off and do something fun like a concert. I did those when I was college and still do frequently. XDD

*hugs* You're gonna be ok. Just take a break and then go for it again when you feel ready. :-*

[yohanna_chan]

Aww thanks, that's a very sweet comment T__T *hugs*

Yea, that's the right feeling... But if you read in my new post, I'm going to cut down my studies to 25% instead... So I can relax.
I think it's like this: I have always, my entire life sucked in school (it was mostly because of my ADHD that made me so hmm, dreamy)... anyway.. And finally for the first time in my life I get good grades :D
I just don't want to ruin it... But it's okay to take breaks too I think.

*hugs* thanks, and sure I'll be okay! After all, I am really happy so I shouldn't let small thing make me sad. :D

[jenbowie]

I did see your latest post after I replied and I'm pleased you are cutting back. That makes the most sense. It doesn't matter when you get your degree so long as you make a good go of it. ^_

[yohanna_chan]

Yea, you're right there... When I was younger, they didn't know much about ADHD or so, so non of the teachers suspected it... And so, from the age of 6 to 15 they told me that I need to stop "daydreaming", move my lazy ass and get some work done. "You're very nice Johanna, but you need to work harder"... ah man, I really did try, but as you said, if it doesn't inspire you, it's hard to get it done

[jenbowie]

I'm with you all the way. ^_^ I remember staring at the other kids and not understanding how they could just start working/studying so easily. I despised school growing up not because I hated learning, but because I hated learning at other peoples' paces and needs. XD College was easier for me though because I was freer to explore things that interested me - I'd say it took a little bit for me to start, but I flourished in college

[yohanna_chan]

I've never been so hyper, so maybe that's why it was hard to see. But I did have trouble sleeping, still does... but that's just me I guess.
My grandmother use to rock and sing to me in Finnish when I was a little kid. My mother too, even though her singing voice is horrible XD
I just had trouble focusing, and I tend to start things but not finish, and I forget things... oh how I forget.
It was just small things that made me different from other kids, but also, I was my parents first child, so they didn't know if I where normal or not... I'm not normal, but I like it ^^

I think it was a very creative idea XD

Yea, B-T music has learned me a lot... Though, phrases from "Kimi no Vanilla" is stuff I won't really be needing... though I wrote on my boyfriends birthdaycard "あんたが大好き"... though with only hiragana, since I don't know much kanji yet ;P

[jenbowie]

LOL, I forget what I'm saying in mid-sentence frequently. My family and friends are used to me jumping topics rapidly, however, so it's not that big of a deal. >.<

While there are things about being ADHD that are hard, there are also great things. As one person used to say about me, if I was motivated, I could get more done in one day than most people did in a week. It's just all about what motivates and inspires you. ^_^

Well, even if you don't need to know some of the phrases yet (like mune), it is good reinforcement of how things should sound, ways of stringing things together and so on. My conversation partner told me I sounded more Japanese than most people she spoke to, and she agrees it's because I listen to the music so much so I get a better feel for the sound. Still have problems with that が tho, since it has a more nasally sound to it than what we Americans do which is a more gutteral, grunt-like "gah" XDDD

[yohanna_chan]

You know what, the thing that person told you is exactly what my dad told me. ^^

Yea, same for me... I only speak with my teacher but I KNOW that listening to music and such makes me better at pronouncing.
Also... being Swedish gives me a great advantage, since our pronouncement are very alike the romaji sound... so the が is not a problem for me... though I have a problem with the r's, since I make them too hmm hard... it sounds more like l sometimes.

Since I haven't talked to you "live" I have no idea how you sound, but I bet you're good, probably better than me... But I think I'm better at speaking Japanese than English XDD