Random
Night…
School is killing me right now. I’m behind and with the new course started I have loads of stuff to do… and since I’m apparently f*cking stupid right now, you can guess how it’s going >.<
It’s all blank in my head when I study… I have no idea what to write and it’s just taking out its toll.
My boyfriend is sleeping so I’m all alone with my “problem”… no one to talk to… sucks… T__T
At times like this… I miss my mother. I just want her to hold me and tell me it’s going to be alright. In some cases, a mother gives more comfort than a boyfriend.
Aww, but now the cat came in, carrying her favorite toy ^_^
She wants me to throw it so she can catch it, and then bring it back to me again… She’s like a dog XD
I don’t want to be sad… I’m not so sad really, just a little stressed and disappointed…
And when I handle stuff like this… I cry. So I often seem sadder than I really am.
Though I could use a hug… especially one from my mother…
But tomorrow I’m seeing my doctor and my psychologist. Also, mom is coming with me so then I’ll meet her. It’s been quite a while since the last time I was there. This time it’s just some discussion about my meds and so on. (I don’t talk to my psychologist anymore, since I’m usually happy XD)
Then I can give my mother a big hug!
I feel like my boyfriend has failed comforting me today… though, he hasn’t really tried either… Ah, it’s not his fault. I’m always weird so how is he supposed to know what to do all the time?
I just feel lonely right now, that’s all.
/Johanna
School is killing me right now. I’m behind and with the new course started I have loads of stuff to do… and since I’m apparently f*cking stupid right now, you can guess how it’s going >.<
It’s all blank in my head when I study… I have no idea what to write and it’s just taking out its toll.
My boyfriend is sleeping so I’m all alone with my “problem”… no one to talk to… sucks… T__T
At times like this… I miss my mother. I just want her to hold me and tell me it’s going to be alright. In some cases, a mother gives more comfort than a boyfriend.
Aww, but now the cat came in, carrying her favorite toy ^_^
She wants me to throw it so she can catch it, and then bring it back to me again… She’s like a dog XD
I don’t want to be sad… I’m not so sad really, just a little stressed and disappointed…
And when I handle stuff like this… I cry. So I often seem sadder than I really am.
Though I could use a hug… especially one from my mother…
But tomorrow I’m seeing my doctor and my psychologist. Also, mom is coming with me so then I’ll meet her. It’s been quite a while since the last time I was there. This time it’s just some discussion about my meds and so on. (I don’t talk to my psychologist anymore, since I’m usually happy XD)
Then I can give my mother a big hug!
I feel like my boyfriend has failed comforting me today… though, he hasn’t really tried either… Ah, it’s not his fault. I’m always weird so how is he supposed to know what to do all the time?
I just feel lonely right now, that’s all.
/Johanna