HURT
Summary: Jae know him from his mom, exactly from his mom who abandoned him for 10 years. Him also become his step-father who soon his lover. They started their affair without his mother known. All feels like a failure during the affair cz its incest, suppose to be incest. a father with step-son, nothing's should be working out. He left his world, his love, his friends behind with a big secret...till he back after 4 years, everything change. Is it?
Genre: angst
Pairings: yunjae, yoosu, min/?
Rating: pg-13
Warnings: might be a failure ^^'' mian...i'm reposting this...since i need to organize my lj back ^^
~prologue~
~I am sinned~
~I couldn't refused him~
~something's wrong?~
~Flashbacks~
~miracle~
~leavin~
~returned~
~meet again~
~he~
~collapsed~
~won't wake up~
~guilty~
~living together?~
14th
He is goin to leave me...
My hands shaking as the result paper slipped away and fall on the floor. I don’t what I should say right now. He is going to leave me. He is going to leave me forever. I s that why he want me sto stay with him? Is this the reason? Is it? I bend down my body as i want to take the paper again but before i could take it, i hearf Ji Mo calling me. I turned my face to the voice but the image pictured is totally shocking me.
“Umma...appa is here.” Ji Mo said while Yunho holding his hand and staring at me. I frozed.
“Umma?” Ji Mo come forward to me, disconnecting his hand with his appa. Yunho still staring at me and the paper that laying next to me.
“Umma...what’s happening?” My son caressed my cheek as he try to get me out from this blankness. I still frozed as i don’t know what anymore that i should say. I took the paper next to me and read it again in front of him.
“Umma, what’s this?” Ji Mo said as he tried to read the paper along with me. But as he is still small, his words are still limited making me quite relieved. Its not like he is goin to understand all the words at all.
“Ji Mo-ah. Can you go out for a while? Umma want to talk with appa a lil bit.” Ji Mo nodded and kissed Yunho on his cheed before running out from the room. Yunho and I satred to each other as Ji Mo already closed the door. I took a breath and stand up, holding the medical paper in my right hand.
“So, you found it.” He said, blankly.
“Yeah. When will you intend to tell me about this?” i shoved him the paper as my eyes already tearing up. He hugged me immediately.
“I’m sorry Jae. I just didnt know how to tell you about this thing.”
“THIS IS NOT A THING YUNHO. THIS IS A FUCKING DISEASE. YOU’RE GOING TO DIE YUNHO. WHEN WILL YOU WANT TO TELL ME ABOUT THIS? ONCE YOU’RE ALREADY LIFELESS? WHAT AM I? YOU ASKED ME TO LIVE WITH YOU HERE BUT IS THIS WHAT I GOT? JUST TO COMFORT YOUR BED UNTIL YOU DIE?” I screamed as I pushed away Yunho from me. I am totally sad and mad right now. I sit down and hold my knees with both hands as my tears running on my cheeks.
“Jae-ah...mianhae...jongmal mianhae.” He said and walked back towards me. He hugged me tightly. I feels secure and safe for awhile but remembering back that he is going to die, really makes me cried more. I hugged him back, letting myself sucked into his world again.
~Yunho POV~
“So, you found it.” I said, blankly. He found the letter. The fake letter.
“Yeah. When will you intend to tell me about this?” He shoved me the paper as his eyes already tearing up. Seeing him like that, I immediately hugged him.
“I’m sorry Jae. I just didnt know how to tell you about this thing.”
“THIS IS NOT A THING YUNHO. THIS IS A FUCKING DISEASE. YOU’RE GOING TO DIE YUNHO. WHEN WILL YOU WANT TO TELL ME ABOUT THIS? ONCE YOU’RE ALREADY LIFELESS? WHAT AM I? YOU ASKED ME TO LIVE WITH YOU HERE BUT IS THIS WHAT I GOT? JUST TO COMFORT YOUR BED UNTIL YOU DIE?” He screamed as he pushed away me from him. I can see that he is totally sad right now. He sit down and hold his knees with both hands as the tears running on his cheeks.
“Jae-ah...mianhae...jongmal mianhae.” I said and walked back towards him. I hugged him tightly. I wonder what he is thinking right now. The fake medical report really shows wonder. I smirked a little so that he won’t see it. He hugged me back. I can say that he is already trapped in my new game. My new little game.
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“Hyung!!!” I shouted calling for Yunho, my retard hyung who is now really makes me mad with him. Yunho is not my real hyung. He is my cousin. I know him very much and i really hate it to know that he still want to hurt Jae Joong hyung feeling. He hurts him before but still that my dumb Jae hyung want to be with him again. I wonder what kind of game that he want to play now.
“YAH JUNG YUNHO!!!!” i shouted again. No response.
“JUNG YUNHO!!!!” i shouted again. This time i can heard the steps from the third floor of the mansion.
“Yah YUNHO!!! What kind of game that you want to do now huh? Playing Jae hyung heart again? I know bout that fake medical report hyung. I know about it. Do you think jae hyung will fall to your trap again? I will never let him do so again. I know the game that you played 4 years ago and i will never let you do it again. Not over my dead body. You’re really a bastard hyung.” I shouted again as i can hear the footsteps becomes closer. I look above, holding my fist, trying to ease the anger in me. But the face appeared really shocked me out.
“Chang Min?” he said shockingly as Yunho is behind him, holding his waist toghtly.
“Jae hyung?”
“What is this?”
“SHIT”
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“Chun...”
“Yeah Su?”
“I wonder...”
“Wonder what dear?” Yoochun kissed Junsu’s temple while waiting for him to continue.
“Is it really okay to let Jae hyung live with Yunho-sshi?” he said as he took Yoochun’s hand softly.
“I don’t know Su. Maybeit is. Its all on Jae right now. He is the one that makes the decision. I’m really sure that he already knows the pros and cons now.” Yoochun said while kissed Junsu plam lovingly.
“I’m just worried. I wonder what will Min do if he know about this.”
“Worried about what dear hmmm? Min? What’s this thing do with him?”
“Let me tell you a secret. Min is Yunho’s cousin.”
“Cousin?”
“Yeah.” Junsu said and nodded furiously. He looked back at Yoochun as the worries still displayed on his face.
Genre: angst
Pairings: yunjae, yoosu, min/?
Rating: pg-13
Warnings: might be a failure ^^'' mian...i'm reposting this...since i need to organize my lj back ^^
~prologue~
~I am sinned~
~I couldn't refused him~
~something's wrong?~
~Flashbacks~
~miracle~
~leavin~
~returned~
~meet again~
~he~
~collapsed~
~won't wake up~
~guilty~
~living together?~
14th
He is goin to leave me...
My hands shaking as the result paper slipped away and fall on the floor. I don’t what I should say right now. He is going to leave me. He is going to leave me forever. I s that why he want me sto stay with him? Is this the reason? Is it? I bend down my body as i want to take the paper again but before i could take it, i hearf Ji Mo calling me. I turned my face to the voice but the image pictured is totally shocking me.
“Umma...appa is here.” Ji Mo said while Yunho holding his hand and staring at me. I frozed.
“Umma?” Ji Mo come forward to me, disconnecting his hand with his appa. Yunho still staring at me and the paper that laying next to me.
“Umma...what’s happening?” My son caressed my cheek as he try to get me out from this blankness. I still frozed as i don’t know what anymore that i should say. I took the paper next to me and read it again in front of him.
“Umma, what’s this?” Ji Mo said as he tried to read the paper along with me. But as he is still small, his words are still limited making me quite relieved. Its not like he is goin to understand all the words at all.
“Ji Mo-ah. Can you go out for a while? Umma want to talk with appa a lil bit.” Ji Mo nodded and kissed Yunho on his cheed before running out from the room. Yunho and I satred to each other as Ji Mo already closed the door. I took a breath and stand up, holding the medical paper in my right hand.
“So, you found it.” He said, blankly.
“Yeah. When will you intend to tell me about this?” i shoved him the paper as my eyes already tearing up. He hugged me immediately.
“I’m sorry Jae. I just didnt know how to tell you about this thing.”
“THIS IS NOT A THING YUNHO. THIS IS A FUCKING DISEASE. YOU’RE GOING TO DIE YUNHO. WHEN WILL YOU WANT TO TELL ME ABOUT THIS? ONCE YOU’RE ALREADY LIFELESS? WHAT AM I? YOU ASKED ME TO LIVE WITH YOU HERE BUT IS THIS WHAT I GOT? JUST TO COMFORT YOUR BED UNTIL YOU DIE?” I screamed as I pushed away Yunho from me. I am totally sad and mad right now. I sit down and hold my knees with both hands as my tears running on my cheeks.
“Jae-ah...mianhae...jongmal mianhae.” He said and walked back towards me. He hugged me tightly. I feels secure and safe for awhile but remembering back that he is going to die, really makes me cried more. I hugged him back, letting myself sucked into his world again.
~Yunho POV~
“So, you found it.” I said, blankly. He found the letter. The fake letter.
“Yeah. When will you intend to tell me about this?” He shoved me the paper as his eyes already tearing up. Seeing him like that, I immediately hugged him.
“I’m sorry Jae. I just didnt know how to tell you about this thing.”
“THIS IS NOT A THING YUNHO. THIS IS A FUCKING DISEASE. YOU’RE GOING TO DIE YUNHO. WHEN WILL YOU WANT TO TELL ME ABOUT THIS? ONCE YOU’RE ALREADY LIFELESS? WHAT AM I? YOU ASKED ME TO LIVE WITH YOU HERE BUT IS THIS WHAT I GOT? JUST TO COMFORT YOUR BED UNTIL YOU DIE?” He screamed as he pushed away me from him. I can see that he is totally sad right now. He sit down and hold his knees with both hands as the tears running on his cheeks.
“Jae-ah...mianhae...jongmal mianhae.” I said and walked back towards him. I hugged him tightly. I wonder what he is thinking right now. The fake medical report really shows wonder. I smirked a little so that he won’t see it. He hugged me back. I can say that he is already trapped in my new game. My new little game.
_____________
“Hyung!!!” I shouted calling for Yunho, my retard hyung who is now really makes me mad with him. Yunho is not my real hyung. He is my cousin. I know him very much and i really hate it to know that he still want to hurt Jae Joong hyung feeling. He hurts him before but still that my dumb Jae hyung want to be with him again. I wonder what kind of game that he want to play now.
“YAH JUNG YUNHO!!!!” i shouted again. No response.
“JUNG YUNHO!!!!” i shouted again. This time i can heard the steps from the third floor of the mansion.
“Yah YUNHO!!! What kind of game that you want to do now huh? Playing Jae hyung heart again? I know bout that fake medical report hyung. I know about it. Do you think jae hyung will fall to your trap again? I will never let him do so again. I know the game that you played 4 years ago and i will never let you do it again. Not over my dead body. You’re really a bastard hyung.” I shouted again as i can hear the footsteps becomes closer. I look above, holding my fist, trying to ease the anger in me. But the face appeared really shocked me out.
“Chang Min?” he said shockingly as Yunho is behind him, holding his waist toghtly.
“Jae hyung?”
“What is this?”
“SHIT”
_________________
“Chun...”
“Yeah Su?”
“I wonder...”
“Wonder what dear?” Yoochun kissed Junsu’s temple while waiting for him to continue.
“Is it really okay to let Jae hyung live with Yunho-sshi?” he said as he took Yoochun’s hand softly.
“I don’t know Su. Maybeit is. Its all on Jae right now. He is the one that makes the decision. I’m really sure that he already knows the pros and cons now.” Yoochun said while kissed Junsu plam lovingly.
“I’m just worried. I wonder what will Min do if he know about this.”
“Worried about what dear hmmm? Min? What’s this thing do with him?”
“Let me tell you a secret. Min is Yunho’s cousin.”
“Cousin?”
“Yeah.” Junsu said and nodded furiously. He looked back at Yoochun as the worries still displayed on his face.