HURT
Summary: Jae know him from his mom, exactly from his mom who abandoned him for 10 years. Him also become his step-father who soon his lover. They started their affair without his mother known. All feels like a failure during the affair cz its incest, suppose to be incest. a father with step-son, nothing's should be working out. He left his world, his love, his friends behind with a big secret...till he back after 4 years, everything change. Is it?
Genre: angst
Pairings: yunjae, yoosu, min/?
Rating: pg-13
Warnings: might be a failure ^^'' mian...i'm reposting this...since i need to organize my lj back ^^
~prologue~
~I am sinned~
~I couldn't refused him~
~something's wrong?~
~Flashbacks~
~miracle~
~leavin~
~returned~
~meet again~
~he~
~collapsed~
~won't wake up~
~guilty~
13th
I love you.
But seems the destiny didn’t fate us together
I love you with all my heart
It hurts to see you are hurting…
And make it deeper,
I’m the one that made u hurting…
Our love…
Started with an incest
Ending with a forbidden one..
I don’t know if I can hold you again
Cause I can feel that
You’re starting to slip away from me
Far and far away…
My love for you is cruel
As our love is FORBIDDEN
I will leave
As you and others wish
****
YUNHO POV
“Hyung...” i woke up as i got another punched for today. I glared at the one who threw me the punched and i smirked.
“Well, well, well... what do we have here? KWON JIYOUNG aka G-DRAGON, the famous leader of Big Bang with the rest of his fucking members...” i clapped my hand and i sit in front of them. I took a glance to my angel that is still unconcious before i look at them back.
“Where did you find him huh? I thought you’re such an ignorant bastard who will leave the one that you just fucking RAPED JUNG YUNHO!!!” he came again as he want to throw another lfist towards me but his friends held him up.
“Hyung-ah, stop. We’re disturbing Jae hyung” Seung Ri said to him, trying to comfort him down.
“I can’t. I saw him made jae hyung suffered. I can see for fucking 4 years maknae. 4 years Ri. I can’t stand to see hyung hurting anymore.” He yelled again. Not realizing the body who’s lying unconciously started to move a lil bit.
“Ji Young, Ji Young. Can’t you see that my love for your hyung here is a pure one. Or else how come he could lay here, unconciously, waiting for me to wake him up huh?” i smirked as i put both of my hands into my pocket.
“You’re just another bastard., OUT. I said OUT JUNG YUNHO. DON’T MAKE ME CALL THE SECURITY NOW!!!” Ji Young yelled again while the others tried to stop him.
“I will Ji Young. I will. But i’ll never let him go even if i’m dead.” I said as i walked passed through him, bumping on him towards the door. I took another glance towards Jae as i opened the door knob, already want to leave them.
“Yunnie...d-d-ddeonaga...”
END POV
***
“I want to be alive. I can feels he will goin to leave me. Please. Let me live again. I love him.” I begged them to let me live again. I know yunho is goin to leave me. His cuddled made me feels weird. Is he planning to do something? I don’t want him to leave me. I know that he raped me, but in the end i just let him do so right?
“Are you sure bout this Jae Joong?” the head of them asked me.
“Yes. I need to see Ji Mo anyway. I’m helpless if Ji Mo is not here, with me. I need him. Please...” i said towards them.
“I know that your love is beautiful jae Joong. But it just seems that both of you are not belongs together. I will let you live again. I hope you can face the reality. Remember, love is pure and yours is as white as the snow.” They said towards me as i could feel tears on my cheek. I love him. I need him. He hurts me. But i still love him. As they clapped their hands, i could see my world started to spin around and changing. Once them stop, i found myself in my body again. I heard a voice yelling. I tried to ignore it but my head is totally hurt. I moved my body a lil bit.
“Ji Young, Ji Young. Can’t you see that my love for your hyung here is a pure one. Or else how come he could lay here, unconciously, waiting for me to wake him up huh?” i heard familiar voice talking about me. Yunho.
“You’re just another bastard., OUT. I said OUT JUNG YUNHO. DON’T MAKE ME CALL THE SECURITY NOW!!!” i heard another yell and i know this voice too. Ji young, my sweet little dongsaeng.
“I will Ji Young. I will. But i’ll never let him go even if i’m dead.” I try to voice out something after i heard he want to leave but i could feels my throat dry. I don’t know for how long i have been unconcious. I heard the door knob was open.
“Yunnie...d-d-ddeonaga...”
***
“Chun-ah. I want to live with Yunho. Can i?” i said towards Junsu and Yoocun who is in front of me. I caressed Ji Mo’s hair that sitting on my lap. I could see their face shocked but i smiled towards them.
“B-b-but hyung-“
“I know what i’m doing Chun, Junsu.” They keep their mouth shut. The silence really makes me wanna choked.
“It’s up to you then. I’ll support you.” Junsu finally spoked up and looking at Yoochun who stared at him dumbfoundedly.
“Chun...please...”
“If that so hyung, i think it’s okay for me too. Since my duck butt here begging me to do so. But i hope you won’t regret with this later.”
“I won’t chun. I know what i’m doin.”
“Ji Mo-ah, we’ll live with appa. Do you want to see appa?”
“Appa? Of course umma.”
***
I walked to the big mansion that once left me a dark memory in my mind. I once asked myself if doing this is a good thing or not but i hope it does. I took my luggage and ring the bell of the gate.
“Who is that?” the speaker said.
“Kim jae joong”
“Oh, Mrs Jung. Wait. I’ll open the gate now.” Mrs Jung? I asked myself. Where is mom? The gate open and an old man greeted me with bow.
“Mrs Jung?” he said and smiled. I looked at him weirdly.
“Mrs Jung?” i asked him back.
“Master yunho asked me to call you that once you arrived. I’m Yoo Jae Suk, this house butchler” he said while he took my luggage and waked us in, into the mansion. I tighten my grip to Ji Mo’s hand as we walked in.
“umma?”
“hmm??”
“Where is appa? I want to meet him”
“You will Ji Mo. Appa also wants to meet you. But he’s in his office. We need to wait arasseo?” i said as we entered the mansion. The butchler walked us to the room taht i’m familiar with. That room. The room he used to rape me. I walked in and looked at the surrounding. I know that i can’t stay in the room. I called the butchler.
“Jae Suk ahjusshi, can you change the room please?”
“Okay. I think you should live in Mater Yunho bed but once i said my opinion, he denied it. Worrried that you doesn’t want to stay in one room with him. Since you said so, i’ll bring your stuff to his room.” I followed him and entered one room. The room looks simple and cozy. I take alook as the butchler leave me and Ji Mo alone in the room.
I walked around but then i found something on his table. His medical report. I read them and my body started to shivered.
PATIENT: Jung Yun Ho
DIAGNOSISED DATE: 22 July 2008 [i made this one XD]
RESULT: Tuberculosis.
He is goin to leave me...
Genre: angst
Pairings: yunjae, yoosu, min/?
Rating: pg-13
Warnings: might be a failure ^^'' mian...i'm reposting this...since i need to organize my lj back ^^
~prologue~
~I am sinned~
~I couldn't refused him~
~something's wrong?~
~Flashbacks~
~miracle~
~leavin~
~returned~
~meet again~
~he~
~collapsed~
~won't wake up~
~guilty~
13th
I love you.
But seems the destiny didn’t fate us together
I love you with all my heart
It hurts to see you are hurting…
And make it deeper,
I’m the one that made u hurting…
Our love…
Started with an incest
Ending with a forbidden one..
I don’t know if I can hold you again
Cause I can feel that
You’re starting to slip away from me
Far and far away…
My love for you is cruel
As our love is FORBIDDEN
I will leave
As you and others wish
****
YUNHO POV
“Hyung...” i woke up as i got another punched for today. I glared at the one who threw me the punched and i smirked.
“Well, well, well... what do we have here? KWON JIYOUNG aka G-DRAGON, the famous leader of Big Bang with the rest of his fucking members...” i clapped my hand and i sit in front of them. I took a glance to my angel that is still unconcious before i look at them back.
“Where did you find him huh? I thought you’re such an ignorant bastard who will leave the one that you just fucking RAPED JUNG YUNHO!!!” he came again as he want to throw another lfist towards me but his friends held him up.
“Hyung-ah, stop. We’re disturbing Jae hyung” Seung Ri said to him, trying to comfort him down.
“I can’t. I saw him made jae hyung suffered. I can see for fucking 4 years maknae. 4 years Ri. I can’t stand to see hyung hurting anymore.” He yelled again. Not realizing the body who’s lying unconciously started to move a lil bit.
“Ji Young, Ji Young. Can’t you see that my love for your hyung here is a pure one. Or else how come he could lay here, unconciously, waiting for me to wake him up huh?” i smirked as i put both of my hands into my pocket.
“You’re just another bastard., OUT. I said OUT JUNG YUNHO. DON’T MAKE ME CALL THE SECURITY NOW!!!” Ji Young yelled again while the others tried to stop him.
“I will Ji Young. I will. But i’ll never let him go even if i’m dead.” I said as i walked passed through him, bumping on him towards the door. I took another glance towards Jae as i opened the door knob, already want to leave them.
“Yunnie...d-d-ddeonaga...”
END POV
***
“I want to be alive. I can feels he will goin to leave me. Please. Let me live again. I love him.” I begged them to let me live again. I know yunho is goin to leave me. His cuddled made me feels weird. Is he planning to do something? I don’t want him to leave me. I know that he raped me, but in the end i just let him do so right?
“Are you sure bout this Jae Joong?” the head of them asked me.
“Yes. I need to see Ji Mo anyway. I’m helpless if Ji Mo is not here, with me. I need him. Please...” i said towards them.
“I know that your love is beautiful jae Joong. But it just seems that both of you are not belongs together. I will let you live again. I hope you can face the reality. Remember, love is pure and yours is as white as the snow.” They said towards me as i could feel tears on my cheek. I love him. I need him. He hurts me. But i still love him. As they clapped their hands, i could see my world started to spin around and changing. Once them stop, i found myself in my body again. I heard a voice yelling. I tried to ignore it but my head is totally hurt. I moved my body a lil bit.
“Ji Young, Ji Young. Can’t you see that my love for your hyung here is a pure one. Or else how come he could lay here, unconciously, waiting for me to wake him up huh?” i heard familiar voice talking about me. Yunho.
“You’re just another bastard., OUT. I said OUT JUNG YUNHO. DON’T MAKE ME CALL THE SECURITY NOW!!!” i heard another yell and i know this voice too. Ji young, my sweet little dongsaeng.
“I will Ji Young. I will. But i’ll never let him go even if i’m dead.” I try to voice out something after i heard he want to leave but i could feels my throat dry. I don’t know for how long i have been unconcious. I heard the door knob was open.
“Yunnie...d-d-ddeonaga...”
***
“Chun-ah. I want to live with Yunho. Can i?” i said towards Junsu and Yoocun who is in front of me. I caressed Ji Mo’s hair that sitting on my lap. I could see their face shocked but i smiled towards them.
“B-b-but hyung-“
“I know what i’m doing Chun, Junsu.” They keep their mouth shut. The silence really makes me wanna choked.
“It’s up to you then. I’ll support you.” Junsu finally spoked up and looking at Yoochun who stared at him dumbfoundedly.
“Chun...please...”
“If that so hyung, i think it’s okay for me too. Since my duck butt here begging me to do so. But i hope you won’t regret with this later.”
“I won’t chun. I know what i’m doin.”
“Ji Mo-ah, we’ll live with appa. Do you want to see appa?”
“Appa? Of course umma.”
***
I walked to the big mansion that once left me a dark memory in my mind. I once asked myself if doing this is a good thing or not but i hope it does. I took my luggage and ring the bell of the gate.
“Who is that?” the speaker said.
“Kim jae joong”
“Oh, Mrs Jung. Wait. I’ll open the gate now.” Mrs Jung? I asked myself. Where is mom? The gate open and an old man greeted me with bow.
“Mrs Jung?” he said and smiled. I looked at him weirdly.
“Mrs Jung?” i asked him back.
“Master yunho asked me to call you that once you arrived. I’m Yoo Jae Suk, this house butchler” he said while he took my luggage and waked us in, into the mansion. I tighten my grip to Ji Mo’s hand as we walked in.
“umma?”
“hmm??”
“Where is appa? I want to meet him”
“You will Ji Mo. Appa also wants to meet you. But he’s in his office. We need to wait arasseo?” i said as we entered the mansion. The butchler walked us to the room taht i’m familiar with. That room. The room he used to rape me. I walked in and looked at the surrounding. I know that i can’t stay in the room. I called the butchler.
“Jae Suk ahjusshi, can you change the room please?”
“Okay. I think you should live in Mater Yunho bed but once i said my opinion, he denied it. Worrried that you doesn’t want to stay in one room with him. Since you said so, i’ll bring your stuff to his room.” I followed him and entered one room. The room looks simple and cozy. I take alook as the butchler leave me and Ji Mo alone in the room.
I walked around but then i found something on his table. His medical report. I read them and my body started to shivered.
PATIENT: Jung Yun Ho
DIAGNOSISED DATE: 22 July 2008 [i made this one XD]
RESULT: Tuberculosis.
He is goin to leave me...