HURT
Summary: Jae know him from his mom, exactly from his mom who abandoned him for 10 years. Him also become his step-father who soon his lover. They started their affair without his mother known. All feels like a failure during the affair cz its incest, suppose to be incest. a father with step-son, nothing's should be working out. He left his world, his love, his friends behind with a big secret...till he back after 4 years, everything change. Is it?
Genre: angst
Pairings: yunjae, yoosu, min/?
Rating: pg-13
Warnings: might be a failure ^^'' mian...i'm reposting this...since i need to organize my lj back ^^
~prologue~
~I am sinned~
~I couldn't refused him~
~something's wrong?~
~Flashbacks~
~miracle~
~leavin~
~returned~
~meet again~
~he~
~collapsed~
~won't wake up~
~guilty~
~living together?~
~cousin?~
15th
~fb~
“Here is the deal. If you managed makes that Kim Jae Joong as yours, USD 1,000,000 will be yours. And i will help you to get rid that Im Ye Jin.”
“Are you sure, Heechul? 1 million USD? That’s a lot you know?” i said to Heechul.
“I just want him get a little bit distracted so that i can have his position. The best model in Korea, Yunho. THE BEST MODEL! I want that title. I have been waiting for so long for this time coming. Knowing you as his step-father. I feels so lucky that i know you can help me Yunnie.”
“Aish Heechul.You know i don’t like this kind of stuff...aigoo”
“Yunnie please...You loves me right? You want to get rid that old woman right? Then just do this, arasseo?” he pleaded at me again and again (XD 2pm song hahaha). I smiled at him again. Kim heechul. My bestfriend aka the 2nd top model in Korea. He is the one who always there with me, after the death of my uncle which makes me marry his ex-wife which is Jae’s mom. That gold-digger. I hate her. I wonder how can i accept this life with her.
“Hey Yun, you got to meet your step son soon. I think your wife calling you.” He showed my phone that keeps ringing as i’m too deep with my thought. I sighed again. I answerd the call n talked with her. Just a few words and i’m done. She’s annoyed me too much.
“What did she want?”
“Meeting my soon beloved USD 1 million at 3.”
“Owh. Hey, he is beautiful. Don’t fall in love with him arasseo? He’s such a sex appealing god. Can seduce you onto his world.” i shook my head telling him that i won’t. I smiled again before leaving him with his world.
“Promise me Yunho. Don’t fall in love with him. Or your USD 1 million is gone.” He shouted back.
“I will heecul. I promise.”
~end fb~
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“ Kim Heechul has become the top model in Korea which means he now ranks 1st of the Korean modelling world since the disappearing of ice prince model, Kim Jae Joong. This is happening since most of the contract that suppose belongs to Kim Jae Joong turned to heechul-sshi due to the sudden Jae Joong-sshi disappearance.The police still looking for Jae Joong and hopefully we can find him soon. KBS Korean News, Park heebon imnida. Back to the main stage.” I turned off the television as the news is already done reported.
He’s gone. Means my money is also gone. Yun, you are great. I laughed to myself. My rival is gone.
Gone with the wind. Kim Heechul is the winner.
________________________
“Chang Min?” i said shockingly as Yunho is behind me, holding my waist tightly.
“Jae hyung?”
“What is this?”
“SHIT” he mutterd under his breath.
“What do you mean by game Min? And why you are here? Did you know Yunho?”
“For sure i know this fucking bastard hyung. He betting on you 4 years back with Kim Heechul. He won his bet with heechul just to get you and get rid of your mother. He won USD 1 million for that. Your mother off and so are you. Heechul got the top model as you disappear. Gosh you’re such a stupid hyung. Stupid.” He said with pure madness that i can sense it from his cracking voice. I take a look at Yunho who is trying to show me that he is innocence. I freed myself and i slapped him right on his left cheek.
“Jae?” He said at me shockingly. I trust Chang Min more than i trust this guy in front of me. He hurt me once. And the pain is still not healed yet.
“I thought you loved me very much. That’s why i’m reconsidering being with you again. That medical report is also fake right? What else do you want from me Yunho? Does it not enough for you to have my body? My heart? My soul? Gosh i’m so stupid. You used me before. To get rid of me from my career? To get rid my mom? You’re such a heartless bastard. I hate you Yunho. HATE YOU (2pm again XD).” I gave him another slapped on his face before i ran toward my son’s room and seeing Butler Yoo with him, as Ji Mo is sleeping next to him. I wake him up as i took all his belonging.
“Umma?”
“We’re leaving Ji Mo.”
“What about appa?”
“Shh...just sleep arachi?” He nodded at me before drift into the lalala land again.
“Thanks Yoo jae Suk-sshi (remember this guy?)” i looked at the butler and thanked him for taking care of my child.
“Its okay Jae Joong-sshi. Are you leaving?” he said.
“Yeah. This is not my place. This place is full with lies. I can’t stay here.” My eyes started to tearing again.
“Is Master know bout this?”
“Yes. He is the reason i’m leaving.”
“Owh. Its glad to serve you jae Joong-sshi although its not one day yet” i nodded to him and started to walked out from the room.
“jae Joong-sshi?”
“Yeah Jae Suk-sshi?”
“He loves you. Very much.” i shook my head as i heard him saying that word. Sarang? I hate that word. It hurting me so much.
I leaved the room immediately as Yunho keeps looking at me intensely. I give him a glance ‘be happy Yunho. Thanks’ as i grab Chang Min out from the mansion. This house will never clean from those lies as my body will never clean from his sinful touch. My tears running down as Chang Min tugged me into his car and drove away.
“Min-ah...mianhae. Is this what you want to tell him at the airport last time? Who are you with him?” i said painfully. It hurts so much. So much that i can’t bear it anymore.
“Hyung...”
“I’m his cousin hyung.” He added. I just shook my head to him. Signal for him to stop talking bout Yunho again.
“Send me back to France. I’m going back and will never come back to this land anymore.” I said as i kept kissing my son’s forehead as i’m watching the view outside the car. It’s beautiful n calm. But why it cant keep my heart calm as it seems? I frowned again. My sin for trusting him, my sin for letting him, my sin for loving him.
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He leaved. Before my little game start again. Damn Chang Min. He revealed everything. I thought with my new game, he will become mine forever. Shit Chang Min. I wnat him back. I love him. I already broken my promise with Heechul and i will never let it slip off. I will never stop loving him. I will have him sooner or later. I gripped my hand tightly and throw a punch on the wall. My hand is bleeding but it is not hurt as my heart for not being to have Jae at my side. i opened up my phone and called someone.
“Stop everything. Dinner and what so ever. He’s gone. My plan ruined.” I closed the phone as i shouted loudly as i can.
“AAARGHHHHHHH!!!!!”
I’m thinking about making him fooled with that medical report and playing with him with a secret code. The secret code. The code that i made in that report to give him clues that i’m goin to ask him for marriage. I have been planning for this game a few days already but that Chang Min has ruined everything. He revealed the past. Jae won’t trust me anymore. SHIT!!!
“Jae Suk, buy me a ticket to France.”
“Yes sir. But may i know why?”
“I’m goin after him. I know he will leave to France. I will have him back. No matter what, he’s mine.”
“Okay sir. I will call the airport now for the reservation”
I’m coming jae. I’m sorry for what has happen.
You followed me annoyingly, and took a deep breath
Trying to catch me, who’s leaving you alone
I grabbed your shoulders tightly and loudly said “We’re through”
That the farewell poison has already, without you knowing, spread in my heart
The disease where my love is slowly dying
It hurts a little, but I don’t want to get better
Every single memory is erasing
Going back to the times when we were strangers,
I want to rest now
Like having played with fire for a long time
Everything has burned, and only ashes remain (Only ashes remain)
Like how even the first feelings have become faint
Everything has become useless (useless)
Facing you and taking your hands, with a bitter smile, I said “Please, be happy”
To find a person who will soothe and embrace the scars that I’ve left you
The disease where my love is slowly dying
It hurts a little, but I don’t want to get better
Every single memory is erasing
Going back to the times when we were strangers,
I want to rest now
Though it hurts too much now
Some day, you might
Wipe your lips as a kiss triggers an unpleasant memory
Trying to erase the warmth you felt when I held you in my arms
Cold tears will wash you
The disease where my love is slowly dying
It hurts a little, but I don’t want to get better
Every single memory is erasing
Going back to the times when we were strangers,
I want to rest now
The disease where my love is slowly dying
It hurts a little, but I don’t want to get better
Every single memory is erasing
Going back to the times when we were strangers,
I want to rest now
Yunho..
Why loving you is hurt?
Genre: angst
Pairings: yunjae, yoosu, min/?
Rating: pg-13
Warnings: might be a failure ^^'' mian...i'm reposting this...since i need to organize my lj back ^^
~prologue~
~I am sinned~
~I couldn't refused him~
~something's wrong?~
~Flashbacks~
~miracle~
~leavin~
~returned~
~meet again~
~he~
~collapsed~
~won't wake up~
~guilty~
~living together?~
~cousin?~
15th
~fb~
“Here is the deal. If you managed makes that Kim Jae Joong as yours, USD 1,000,000 will be yours. And i will help you to get rid that Im Ye Jin.”
“Are you sure, Heechul? 1 million USD? That’s a lot you know?” i said to Heechul.
“I just want him get a little bit distracted so that i can have his position. The best model in Korea, Yunho. THE BEST MODEL! I want that title. I have been waiting for so long for this time coming. Knowing you as his step-father. I feels so lucky that i know you can help me Yunnie.”
“Aish Heechul.You know i don’t like this kind of stuff...aigoo”
“Yunnie please...You loves me right? You want to get rid that old woman right? Then just do this, arasseo?” he pleaded at me again and again (XD 2pm song hahaha). I smiled at him again. Kim heechul. My bestfriend aka the 2nd top model in Korea. He is the one who always there with me, after the death of my uncle which makes me marry his ex-wife which is Jae’s mom. That gold-digger. I hate her. I wonder how can i accept this life with her.
“Hey Yun, you got to meet your step son soon. I think your wife calling you.” He showed my phone that keeps ringing as i’m too deep with my thought. I sighed again. I answerd the call n talked with her. Just a few words and i’m done. She’s annoyed me too much.
“What did she want?”
“Meeting my soon beloved USD 1 million at 3.”
“Owh. Hey, he is beautiful. Don’t fall in love with him arasseo? He’s such a sex appealing god. Can seduce you onto his world.” i shook my head telling him that i won’t. I smiled again before leaving him with his world.
“Promise me Yunho. Don’t fall in love with him. Or your USD 1 million is gone.” He shouted back.
“I will heecul. I promise.”
~end fb~
________________________
“ Kim Heechul has become the top model in Korea which means he now ranks 1st of the Korean modelling world since the disappearing of ice prince model, Kim Jae Joong. This is happening since most of the contract that suppose belongs to Kim Jae Joong turned to heechul-sshi due to the sudden Jae Joong-sshi disappearance.The police still looking for Jae Joong and hopefully we can find him soon. KBS Korean News, Park heebon imnida. Back to the main stage.” I turned off the television as the news is already done reported.
He’s gone. Means my money is also gone. Yun, you are great. I laughed to myself. My rival is gone.
Gone with the wind. Kim Heechul is the winner.
________________________
“Chang Min?” i said shockingly as Yunho is behind me, holding my waist tightly.
“Jae hyung?”
“What is this?”
“SHIT” he mutterd under his breath.
“What do you mean by game Min? And why you are here? Did you know Yunho?”
“For sure i know this fucking bastard hyung. He betting on you 4 years back with Kim Heechul. He won his bet with heechul just to get you and get rid of your mother. He won USD 1 million for that. Your mother off and so are you. Heechul got the top model as you disappear. Gosh you’re such a stupid hyung. Stupid.” He said with pure madness that i can sense it from his cracking voice. I take a look at Yunho who is trying to show me that he is innocence. I freed myself and i slapped him right on his left cheek.
“Jae?” He said at me shockingly. I trust Chang Min more than i trust this guy in front of me. He hurt me once. And the pain is still not healed yet.
“I thought you loved me very much. That’s why i’m reconsidering being with you again. That medical report is also fake right? What else do you want from me Yunho? Does it not enough for you to have my body? My heart? My soul? Gosh i’m so stupid. You used me before. To get rid of me from my career? To get rid my mom? You’re such a heartless bastard. I hate you Yunho. HATE YOU (2pm again XD).” I gave him another slapped on his face before i ran toward my son’s room and seeing Butler Yoo with him, as Ji Mo is sleeping next to him. I wake him up as i took all his belonging.
“Umma?”
“We’re leaving Ji Mo.”
“What about appa?”
“Shh...just sleep arachi?” He nodded at me before drift into the lalala land again.
“Thanks Yoo jae Suk-sshi (remember this guy?)” i looked at the butler and thanked him for taking care of my child.
“Its okay Jae Joong-sshi. Are you leaving?” he said.
“Yeah. This is not my place. This place is full with lies. I can’t stay here.” My eyes started to tearing again.
“Is Master know bout this?”
“Yes. He is the reason i’m leaving.”
“Owh. Its glad to serve you jae Joong-sshi although its not one day yet” i nodded to him and started to walked out from the room.
“jae Joong-sshi?”
“Yeah Jae Suk-sshi?”
“He loves you. Very much.” i shook my head as i heard him saying that word. Sarang? I hate that word. It hurting me so much.
I leaved the room immediately as Yunho keeps looking at me intensely. I give him a glance ‘be happy Yunho. Thanks’ as i grab Chang Min out from the mansion. This house will never clean from those lies as my body will never clean from his sinful touch. My tears running down as Chang Min tugged me into his car and drove away.
“Min-ah...mianhae. Is this what you want to tell him at the airport last time? Who are you with him?” i said painfully. It hurts so much. So much that i can’t bear it anymore.
“Hyung...”
“I’m his cousin hyung.” He added. I just shook my head to him. Signal for him to stop talking bout Yunho again.
“Send me back to France. I’m going back and will never come back to this land anymore.” I said as i kept kissing my son’s forehead as i’m watching the view outside the car. It’s beautiful n calm. But why it cant keep my heart calm as it seems? I frowned again. My sin for trusting him, my sin for letting him, my sin for loving him.
______________________
He leaved. Before my little game start again. Damn Chang Min. He revealed everything. I thought with my new game, he will become mine forever. Shit Chang Min. I wnat him back. I love him. I already broken my promise with Heechul and i will never let it slip off. I will never stop loving him. I will have him sooner or later. I gripped my hand tightly and throw a punch on the wall. My hand is bleeding but it is not hurt as my heart for not being to have Jae at my side. i opened up my phone and called someone.
“Stop everything. Dinner and what so ever. He’s gone. My plan ruined.” I closed the phone as i shouted loudly as i can.
“AAARGHHHHHHH!!!!!”
I’m thinking about making him fooled with that medical report and playing with him with a secret code. The secret code. The code that i made in that report to give him clues that i’m goin to ask him for marriage. I have been planning for this game a few days already but that Chang Min has ruined everything. He revealed the past. Jae won’t trust me anymore. SHIT!!!
“Jae Suk, buy me a ticket to France.”
“Yes sir. But may i know why?”
“I’m goin after him. I know he will leave to France. I will have him back. No matter what, he’s mine.”
“Okay sir. I will call the airport now for the reservation”
I’m coming jae. I’m sorry for what has happen.
You followed me annoyingly, and took a deep breath
Trying to catch me, who’s leaving you alone
I grabbed your shoulders tightly and loudly said “We’re through”
That the farewell poison has already, without you knowing, spread in my heart
The disease where my love is slowly dying
It hurts a little, but I don’t want to get better
Every single memory is erasing
Going back to the times when we were strangers,
I want to rest now
Like having played with fire for a long time
Everything has burned, and only ashes remain (Only ashes remain)
Like how even the first feelings have become faint
Everything has become useless (useless)
Facing you and taking your hands, with a bitter smile, I said “Please, be happy”
To find a person who will soothe and embrace the scars that I’ve left you
The disease where my love is slowly dying
It hurts a little, but I don’t want to get better
Every single memory is erasing
Going back to the times when we were strangers,
I want to rest now
Though it hurts too much now
Some day, you might
Wipe your lips as a kiss triggers an unpleasant memory
Trying to erase the warmth you felt when I held you in my arms
Cold tears will wash you
The disease where my love is slowly dying
It hurts a little, but I don’t want to get better
Every single memory is erasing
Going back to the times when we were strangers,
I want to rest now
The disease where my love is slowly dying
It hurts a little, but I don’t want to get better
Every single memory is erasing
Going back to the times when we were strangers,
I want to rest now
Yunho..
Why loving you is hurt?