本当の自分
so much for wanting to start a new life here...haha....so much for wanting to create a new image for myself.....haha....guess this is just not the right time and maybe probably place?? lolx....to think i had such a high expectation for this place....がっかりしました...then again i guess its more of the fact that its the wrong time as i cant afford to just leave everything behind and move on like normal...haha....normal in my sense i mean...wait till i finally leave this place then i SWEAR that i will be myself...
'dont try to be someone u are not...' what a subtle hint for me to catch....
then again, i realise sometimes i am not that bitchy as i thought i am....sometimes i think i have some personality disorder as i switch pretty fast and what's amazing is that i am actually aware of it....but it is not something that i had done deliberately....it just seems natural for me to react like that in certain circumstances...haha....i am just weird....
wadever the case, i am seriously kinda tired of trying to put on a false front...its time i just be myself.....soon i guess.....haha.....
'dont try to be someone u are not...' what a subtle hint for me to catch....
then again, i realise sometimes i am not that bitchy as i thought i am....sometimes i think i have some personality disorder as i switch pretty fast and what's amazing is that i am actually aware of it....but it is not something that i had done deliberately....it just seems natural for me to react like that in certain circumstances...haha....i am just weird....
wadever the case, i am seriously kinda tired of trying to put on a false front...its time i just be myself.....soon i guess.....haha.....