Emptiness.
This semester it seems that I'll be seeing less of everyone. Laura is always in the lab, Gabe is always gone, I never saw Sam and Thomas much anyway, my roommate moved out, I'm not very close with Medeleine, and Jenna is perpetually gone. The only thing that hasn't really changed is my time with Archer and Ian. At the same time though I'm becoming more comfortable with being alone in the dorm-- allowing myself to be in my room doing work when I know others are here. It's so weird to write this-- I was always by myself at home. But that's not the same I guess. I really don't like being home alone so much back in Anchorage. To be perfectly honest, I wasn't that excited about being back. I was always stuck, and there were barely any things for me to do, or people to talk with. I'm jealous of people like Joel who have such great relationships with their families.
Sigh. Things just feel emptier.
Sigh. Things just feel emptier.