I hate people...
Im soooooo stressed and everyone keeps making it worse and pissing me off more. So here's a little update on my stressful, shit-tastic life.
-Kirstie told Eric she wanted to sleep with him. And Eric doesn't see a problem with it.
-Dan told Kasie that he really likes her even though he talks shit about her behind her back. Kasie started liking him, so I tried to save her by telling her exactly who Dan is. He got pissed cuz I "cock blocked" him.
-Eric decided to share with me that all of his friends hate me and never want me around because Im "a controlling bitch and a cunt." And they're having a party one of the last days that I'll be able to see Eric before he leaves, but Im not allowed to go. Eric didnt care. Or at least he doesnt appear to.
-Ive realized that Eric is never gonna stick up for me or our relationship unless forced. Apparently he doesnt have to because I do it on a daily basis. He says it wont do any good, it wont make his friends shut up, and he doesnt feel like fighting with them. He'd rather just tune it out like he always does.
-Ive realized Eric will most always make me feel guilty for being upset about something he's doing. Apparently it's my problem that girls who are supposed to be my "friends" are flirting with him. There's a problem with my thought pattern and my morals. My opinion on what is right is linked to my emotions instead of logical thought, and therefore isnt right at all. And even though Eric letting girls flirt with him is "my problem," Im not allowed to do anything about it because he doesnt want to lose her as a friend.
-I was gonna move out of my parents house and in with Eric and a few friends. Eric told me he wanted Kirstie to move in right after I found out about the whole her wanting to sleep with him thing. But now the whole moving thing isnt gonna happen.
-Erics leaving for bootcamp in two weeks and I dont feel like Im actually spending time with him. All we do is watch tv and ignore eachother or hang out with his friends and he ignores me.
-Ive realized why I never stick up for myself and why I cant get angry but I dont know how to fix it.
-Im working everyday and doubles at least twice a week.
-My cold isnt going away after having it for three weeks already.
-David insists on calling me every time hes taking a shit.
-I get paid tomorrow and have to do ALL of my Christmas shopping still.
Ugh!!!
Stabby rip stab stab!!
There are a couple things that are cheering me up right now though...
Gay Bar-Electric Six
Chocolate Pope-Electric Six
-Kirstie told Eric she wanted to sleep with him. And Eric doesn't see a problem with it.
-Dan told Kasie that he really likes her even though he talks shit about her behind her back. Kasie started liking him, so I tried to save her by telling her exactly who Dan is. He got pissed cuz I "cock blocked" him.
-Eric decided to share with me that all of his friends hate me and never want me around because Im "a controlling bitch and a cunt." And they're having a party one of the last days that I'll be able to see Eric before he leaves, but Im not allowed to go. Eric didnt care. Or at least he doesnt appear to.
-Ive realized that Eric is never gonna stick up for me or our relationship unless forced. Apparently he doesnt have to because I do it on a daily basis. He says it wont do any good, it wont make his friends shut up, and he doesnt feel like fighting with them. He'd rather just tune it out like he always does.
-Ive realized Eric will most always make me feel guilty for being upset about something he's doing. Apparently it's my problem that girls who are supposed to be my "friends" are flirting with him. There's a problem with my thought pattern and my morals. My opinion on what is right is linked to my emotions instead of logical thought, and therefore isnt right at all. And even though Eric letting girls flirt with him is "my problem," Im not allowed to do anything about it because he doesnt want to lose her as a friend.
-I was gonna move out of my parents house and in with Eric and a few friends. Eric told me he wanted Kirstie to move in right after I found out about the whole her wanting to sleep with him thing. But now the whole moving thing isnt gonna happen.
-Erics leaving for bootcamp in two weeks and I dont feel like Im actually spending time with him. All we do is watch tv and ignore eachother or hang out with his friends and he ignores me.
-Ive realized why I never stick up for myself and why I cant get angry but I dont know how to fix it.
-Im working everyday and doubles at least twice a week.
-My cold isnt going away after having it for three weeks already.
-David insists on calling me every time hes taking a shit.
-I get paid tomorrow and have to do ALL of my Christmas shopping still.
Ugh!!!
Stabby rip stab stab!!
There are a couple things that are cheering me up right now though...
Gay Bar-Electric Six
Chocolate Pope-Electric Six