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I haven't updated in ages. It's not that I've forgotten about you, dear livejournal. I have been up at the beach four days a week all summer, and the connection up there is spotty. When I come home, typically I crash and leave just enough time to regroup and head back up.
It's been a fantastic summer. For as long as I live I want to remember exploring rootbeer creek with Henry in the pouring rain, listening to him talk about his discoveries and just watching him take in the world. Every morning, Rita comes up the stairs, opens my door, and wakes me up. In the beginning of the summer it was just "hi!" and then it evolved and became "NayNay, Hi!" and now the door opens and she says "hi, NayNay!" and crawls up into bed with me, pulls on a pillow under me and says "my pillow." We cuddle and listen to music and sing. I want to remember forever watching these kids grow up and getting to be a part of their lives.
I am moving back to Buffalo. I haven't told too many people, but it's official. I am excited and a little nervous. I'll have Rita after school during the week, which is amazing. I love Buffalo. It is my city, and I'm glad to be going back. I'm going to get active with meetings again and try to meet sober people that way. School in the spring. D isn't coming with me this time. She was really traumatized by the last move and I wasn't very attentive this last time I got sick...it took a long time for her to come back around, and she's ten now. I don't want to stress her. I love her enough to keep her here with my mom and Xena, even if I honestly miss her so much it actually hurts. It's the right thing to do, but it breaks my heart.
Tomorrow is Henry's ice cream social at his school. I'm gonna take him to the beach from there. Next week Reets is gonna come here for a few days and have a bit of a vacation, since Henry came last week. I'm looking forward to having her here.
Life is good.
It's been a fantastic summer. For as long as I live I want to remember exploring rootbeer creek with Henry in the pouring rain, listening to him talk about his discoveries and just watching him take in the world. Every morning, Rita comes up the stairs, opens my door, and wakes me up. In the beginning of the summer it was just "hi!" and then it evolved and became "NayNay, Hi!" and now the door opens and she says "hi, NayNay!" and crawls up into bed with me, pulls on a pillow under me and says "my pillow." We cuddle and listen to music and sing. I want to remember forever watching these kids grow up and getting to be a part of their lives.
I am moving back to Buffalo. I haven't told too many people, but it's official. I am excited and a little nervous. I'll have Rita after school during the week, which is amazing. I love Buffalo. It is my city, and I'm glad to be going back. I'm going to get active with meetings again and try to meet sober people that way. School in the spring. D isn't coming with me this time. She was really traumatized by the last move and I wasn't very attentive this last time I got sick...it took a long time for her to come back around, and she's ten now. I don't want to stress her. I love her enough to keep her here with my mom and Xena, even if I honestly miss her so much it actually hurts. It's the right thing to do, but it breaks my heart.
Tomorrow is Henry's ice cream social at his school. I'm gonna take him to the beach from there. Next week Reets is gonna come here for a few days and have a bit of a vacation, since Henry came last week. I'm looking forward to having her here.
Life is good.