Crickets.
I am a jumble of emotions these past few days. I'm depressed: my dad's anniversary was sunday and that's always hard, Its almost september and the end of summer is very sad for me. I'm anxious about moving: i'm not going to be living on my own, which is good and bad. I get into trouble when I live alone. I'm gonna be living with my Dad's youngest brother and his kids (my cousins,) who are both in middle school. He works nights and in exchange for room and board I will be a safe adult presence, make sure Ryan does his homework, and make dinner. I am not as familiar with my Dad's side of the family as I am my mom's. I know them well and enjoy the time I spend with them, but it will be an adjustment. I felt a similar level of anxiety when I moved in with my aunt and uncle, probably.
I am excited about getting to know my uncle better, and getting to spend time with those cousins. I am really excited to be spending time with Rita and Henry on a daily basis again.
I am devastated to be leaving D behind. I keep wanting to back out of the entire arrangement for that very reason. My chest hurts and my eyes sting when I think about it. She is my little sidekick and i can't sleep without her snoring at my side at night. I will definitely be driving home every weekend to see her.
I have fallen twice in the past two days, and three times in the past week. Wet rocks with algae on them might actually be the death of me. I emerged unscathed except for a slight scrape on my elbow and some brushburn. I have to remember my mion sandals (the ones, @kenz, you call my life partner shoes.)
Rather than let any specific emotion overwhelm me any further, I am going to lay here and listen to the crickets and the waves and breathe.
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I am excited about getting to know my uncle better, and getting to spend time with those cousins. I am really excited to be spending time with Rita and Henry on a daily basis again.
I am devastated to be leaving D behind. I keep wanting to back out of the entire arrangement for that very reason. My chest hurts and my eyes sting when I think about it. She is my little sidekick and i can't sleep without her snoring at my side at night. I will definitely be driving home every weekend to see her.
I have fallen twice in the past two days, and three times in the past week. Wet rocks with algae on them might actually be the death of me. I emerged unscathed except for a slight scrape on my elbow and some brushburn. I have to remember my mion sandals (the ones, @kenz, you call my life partner shoes.)
Rather than let any specific emotion overwhelm me any further, I am going to lay here and listen to the crickets and the waves and breathe.
Posted via LjBeetle