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I saw my doctor last week for my carpal tunnel, and while there I mentioned the increase in nighttime grinding and clenching I've experienced all summer. Naturally, she suggested a bite guard until I told her that I had chewed through two already. She said her best recommendation would be benadryl, since it will promote sounder sleep, and it's non-habit forming, and that's a major concern with me.
I took some tonight, because I'm back at home and I have some on hand.
A year ago, I could have eaten handfuls of them and been unaffected. I was combining drugs that on their own would sedate a small horse, and even then I was able to function without feeling sleepy. Not that I was functioning, but for other reasons.
Now that I'm a year clean and my system is a little more sensitive, after taking two benadryl I'm yawning so hard I've got tears in my eyes.
I made sure to have the doctor note in my file that I'm not to be prescribed controlled substances at any time without first discussing it with my treatment team. The addict in me was pained by this, because it will now be near-impossible to obtain any prescription drugs should I relapse, but it was a sound decision. It's surprising that I needed to go to these lengths, considering that my charts reflect my history of substance abuse and chemical dependence and therefore it would be reasonable to assume that no medical professional in their right mind would give me scheduled drugs, but I've successfully run scams in the past and it's too important now that I stay alive.
I'm wiped. Off to the island of misfit toys.
I took some tonight, because I'm back at home and I have some on hand.
A year ago, I could have eaten handfuls of them and been unaffected. I was combining drugs that on their own would sedate a small horse, and even then I was able to function without feeling sleepy. Not that I was functioning, but for other reasons.
Now that I'm a year clean and my system is a little more sensitive, after taking two benadryl I'm yawning so hard I've got tears in my eyes.
I made sure to have the doctor note in my file that I'm not to be prescribed controlled substances at any time without first discussing it with my treatment team. The addict in me was pained by this, because it will now be near-impossible to obtain any prescription drugs should I relapse, but it was a sound decision. It's surprising that I needed to go to these lengths, considering that my charts reflect my history of substance abuse and chemical dependence and therefore it would be reasonable to assume that no medical professional in their right mind would give me scheduled drugs, but I've successfully run scams in the past and it's too important now that I stay alive.
I'm wiped. Off to the island of misfit toys.