You're So Cute When You're Slurring Your Speech
It's possible I gave up a bit too easily on that trig. If I put my mind to it, I know I could do it. But I still have tomorrow… and I'm a procrastinator at heart. Which you can see. With the whole not updating thing.
So let's catch up on May, shall we?
2nd: Couple of really major events. One, the conformation that I'm an idiot. I decided it would be a good idea to blow off the afternoon. Why? Good question. I had a reason for science- Sarah and Jen were driving me crazy because they wanted to do the project we were and they expected us to switch and the teacher was also getting my back up- but music? Why?? First of all, Chris is there, so it's not like I skipped to be with him. Second, I love the teacher. Third, it's easy. So what was my logic? No idea. If it had just been science I probably could have gone home. But I didn't. And I got caught. 5 minutes before the bell. The lunch monitor (Kathy- she lives on my street- who I can't stand) told on us when we were in the café but we managed to sneak out before Mr. Ball appeared. We avoided him the whole afternoon, until he saw us going upstairs. Actually, he only saw me, the others had gone ahead (Toni, Chris, Holly) but I saw no point in running so I just called Holly back (Chris and Toni- also skipping- have the other VP so he didn't care) and he took us to the office and yelled at us. Called our moms. Basically said he expected it from Holly but was disappointed in me. So my parents were furious, but, being the cold hearted manipulator I can be, I cried my way out of it and claimed it was the stress of Sarah bullying me. (Sure, she's a bitch, but it's not like she singles me out. She's mostly after Holly. I can deal with her.) The main thing was they said I couldn't go to the coffeehouse, and it was the last one, so I couldn't miss it! After promising I'd go for extra help in math, work hard in science, go to all my classes, come home right after school all week- they let me go.
And I had an amazing time. As always, the performers were awesome. First was this long haired pretty boy who played guitar and sang, and then another emo boy who played piano and sang- Death Cab For Cutie, Passenger Seat- very nice. Then Shamus did some of his funny songs- one about street hockey that had a line "yeah, it's way better than getting drunk, stoned, or laid." He's so wonderfully inappropriate. While the next group was setting up (nine or ten guys with various guitars and stuff- they just seemed to be randomly jamming- and a guy who sat there and said "Blood, red, blood on my hand, red, blood on the carpet, red, blood" over and over in a creepy voice) one of the math teachers rapped- hilarious. And then two guys did "Rapper's delight". Sam, a girl that can really sing and play guitar, decided to play while the next guys were messing with the sound- Ms. Curran said we really needed some estrogen. And then Dan's band played- they called themselves the "five funky fishes and their fun friends, yo". They made it up in the café that afternoon. Also, there were three of them. But they were good. And then Dan played on his own. One of his songs he'd written himself. And he said it was for someone in the audience. And I happen to know it was for me. Awkward… but sweet, I suppose. Then Evan's band- and Mike screamed. I didn't know he could do that and I also didn't know Evan could sing like that! And I also didn't know Chris and him are cousins! I can see the resemblance, though. What do I have about the boys in that family? (Random thing- I found out Devon is dating Ryan! The guy I used to like! I so never saw them together, but it actually looks pretty cute. No jealousy on my part either- I really don't know why I ever saw him as anything more than a friend. Rebound, for sure.)
Speaking of Chris… he had five cups of coffee! And it seemed to calm him down. (I only just found out he has ADD. It really doesn't show. Usually.) He'd been so hyper walking over, jumping around and singing. It was cute, though. It was so funny, he has really ticklish knees (and for some reason it turns him on… haha) so every time he went to take a drink I'd tickle him. The first time he nearly chocked. He was getting me back for it later by sneaking up behind me and grabbing me- I said I couldn’t stand him and he said "You love me" and I said "Yeah, I do, but I don't know why!'
The coolest part of the night was that my dad let me walk home. In the dark. Guess he trust Chris. And he should. This drunk guy was walking towards us and Chris' grip tightened on my hand and his other hand slipped out of his pocket- you could tell he was ready to protect me. The guy just stumbled around us grinning, but still. He was so happy all the way home- all the guitar stuff made him hyper. I love him like that- he has the best smile.
So the afternoon sucked but the evening made up for it… it was a beautiful night.
3rd: Went to all my classes, not that I really had a choice. It was really nice and sunny, too, which made it hard. Toni and me got caramel sundaes on the way home. It was a weird day, it felt slow and fast at the same time. But it was okay. Chris played guitar for me at lunch- taught me Smoke on the Water. And I was having fun distracting him- at one point he was concentrating on a new chord and I leaned over and whispered, "How much concentration do you need for that?" and started kissing his neck. Unfortunately, he gets pretty focused, so I wasn't getting a reaction- until I licked him. He actually moaned. I love making him squirm. Speaking of guitars, I broke my first string! My high E. I was pissed, so I was playing loud, and it just snapped. I got a new one, but it made me feel… special. Yeah, I'm odd.
4th: Failed a trig test- and I mean failed. Like, under 10%. I told Chris and he said his mark in the class was lower than that. (Not true- though he did get a 13 in English.) It's kind of sad because I know he's smart- if he only tried, he could ace everything, I know it. But he just doesn't care. He's failing all his classes right now, he hardly ever goes, and he just doesn't care. Nothing I say is going to change it, either. I can only hope he'll realize his potential. I know he just wants to be a musician, but education is still important. He's so frustrating sometimes… the "but, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles" line from the Anna Nalick song fits him so well.
That reminds, something I've been meaning to do for ages- he was playing guitar at lunch and he looked so pretty- and luckily I had my camera with me. So here's my baby with his baby. (Okay, actually just a random guitar from the music room, but he loves anything with strings.) And other random pictures from lunch.
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/cameronanddonald.jpg (Cameron and Donald in his pretty pretty blue shirt- okay, I think this is actually a week or so old but I just love Donald in that shirt. Not sexually. It's just a really pretty color! And, yeah, he looks hot in it. I tried to unbutton it once and he got really freaked out, haha. He's mildly scared of him, but I just love the little bunny.)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/hollyandtoni.jpg (Toni and Holly! My bestest girlfriends in the world. Holly's the one on the left in the slutty black shirt. I love that shirt. Especially on her. Yeah, leave me alone, I think one of my best friends is hot. Yeah, I've kissed her. But, shh, don't remind Chris, he gets jealous, haha.)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris1.jpg (Cute little emo boy with his guitar!)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris3.jpg (Sigh, he's got such pretty hair)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris4.jpg ("Oh, lookie, a car! I wanna chase it!!" Yeah, he actually said that, haha)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris5.jpg (This is what happens when you say, "Look, Chris, I've got a camera!" I guess that's his surprised face, haha)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris7.jpg (I like his arms)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris8.jpg (Sideways! His hair looks like an upsidedown bluebell!)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris9.jpg (He's in the corner... *evil smile*)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris11.jpg (And he says he's not emo, tsk tsk)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris12.jpg (Alisha said something and he was "oohing" haha)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris13.jpg (He looks small. But he's not. 5"8. But nice and slender.)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris15.jpg (He has such pretty hair!!)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris16.jpg (I just like commenting on how pretty he is... haha)
My two favorite ones won't upload for some reason so I'll have to add them later. And I must get a pic of him with his black shirt unbuttoned... yeah, I'm swooning here. Moving on!
The rest of the day was pretty slow- Tiff and Alex were fighting in music (she says he grabbed her ass- it doesn't seem like something he'd do, but I'm not getting involved) and Sarah and Jen were being bitches in science, asking if me and Holly were virgins and telling me I should dump Chris because they think he has an anger management problem. (Maybe he does, but it's not like he'd direct it at me.) They said he's a women beater. I nearly said, "Well, you don't have to worry, then." Like I'd take relationship advice from whores. Only other interesting thing was that at lunch Dan said one of his hands was named Jill… not sure if he knew I was listening but I was thoroughly freaked me out. We haven't really talked since me and Chris got back together… he keeps glaring every time he sees us. He's a good friend and all, but geez… I hate the way guys get when they've been rejected.
Alex and Chris were over after school and that was fun- we mainly just played with Franny and Chris messed around with the piano but it was still fun. Then my mom came in and wouldn't leave us alone which was dumb- I mean, Alex was there, like anything was going to happen. And she kept asking what they wanted to do with their futures and stuff. Alex is a talker, though, so he kept her busy. Me and Chris just kept exchanging "I wish they weren't here" glances. I did kiss him before he left and I think Mom might have seen but I don't really care. If she knew that an innocent little kiss is really tame for us she'd have a heart attack.
5th: Went shopping with my mom which is never fun, but I got two new shirts- a pink Tinkerbell one with "not so innocent" on it and this really pretty lavender tank-top with ruffles and a silky bow. Four dollars in clearance! I love bargains. The rest of the day was spend playing guitar (I'm learning All You Wanted by Michelle Branch, Dirty Little Secret by The All-American Rejects and Marching Bands Of Manhattan by Death Cab for Cutie) and working on my Piczo site. I'm going back to a Tinkerbell theme. Also I made a random list of songs that remind me of Chris:
Fever- Michael Buble's version (It's the whole fever/kisses thing)
Heaven- dj Sammy (ongoing joke from music class- a few of the boys learned it on piano and play it all the time- it annoys the hell out of me so Chris decided to learn it on guitar- it's kind of become our song, even though it drives me insane)
Back In Black- AC/DC (one of his favorite songs- and it just fits him perfectly)
As Lovers Go- Dashboard Confessionals (I'm not really sure why this makes me think of him- it always has, though… maybe it's the "don't complicate it by hesitating" bit.)
Don't Fear The Reaper- HIM (It's his favorite thing to practice on guitar and it's just really pretty… like him.)
Don't worry, I'm not so obsessed that I usually make lists like that. Holly does. I found a list once about why she loves Justin and among "sensitive, funny, good kisser" was "tame". She still denies it, but I swear it said that. No idea what she meant by it, not sure I want to know, haha. It's kind of cute, though. I have to admit they're cute together, even though he annoys the hell out of me and they really need to get a room. The kissing- ugh! Chris isn't into PDA and we're hardly ever alone so we're not like that. And I'm okay with that. It makes it more fun the few times we are alone… speaking of which, I'm hoping my parents aren't around sometime soon because I'd like a repeat of last weekend.
Today- Went shopping but Mom wouldn't let Dad buy me anything. Though he said he'd take me out again next weekend. I want a black Beatles shirt and a black Tinkerbell shirt and these adorable pink and yellow Piglet pajamas that say "tickled pink" on them from Wal-mart and there's a million things I want from Winners. I swear, I could spend a few thousand in that store. My favorite was this black tank-top that said "Goodbye Kitty" on it. So awesome. We also looked at cellphones- they had this really sleek silver Samsung (alliteration!) that I love. Dad said we'd talk about it next weekend. Then we went grocery shopping and I saw Jen and Sarah which was annoying, but I ignored them. I wish I had a job- Jen works there. Stupid sixteen year olds. Only six more months, but still… I need money!
Oh, and I had another pregnancy dream last night… Chris wasn't the father, though. Matt was. Except his name was Ryan. Weird, hmm? And in the dream I told Chris and he said it didn't count as cheating unless I liked the sex. I also told him "Ryan" had raped me and he said he was going to shoot him. But I said he couldn't because we were going to Chester to get married so the baby would have a real family. What the hell? And Chester? There's so many things wrong with that. Dreams are so… proof that I'm insane, haha.
My fingers are tired from all this typing and my ears are tired from blasting MCR and my brain is tired from being semi-aware. I still have another hour till Drawn Together is on so I think I'll read for a while. Inkheart is an awesome book- thanks for lending it to me, Toni! I'm going to listen to the rain, too… it was really nice and wet today. I had to change so many times because I kept going out and getting soaked, but it was lovely. I wish Chris had been around because the kissing would have been way hot… oh well, it'll rain again. And maybe the sun will come out someday, too! I want to wear a skirt. (Except last time I wore a skirt Alex kept picking me up… and I'm sure Cameron would go crazy over my legs… I really need some girlfriends. My guy friends are all lovely, but total perverts. Then again… so am I. No wonder we get along so well.)
Edit: Awesome Drawn Together- Xandir decided to tell his parents he was gay so Toot and Captain Hero were role playing with him. It got thoroughly messed up and even had Xandir as a whore- which was pretty hot. I missed the last five minutes, though, because my mom came in and started talking at me and I had to switch the channal because she'd go on and on about how inappropriate it is for a 15 year old to be watching a 18+ show. Pfft, if only she knew what I usually watch on Saturday nights… anyway! I'm going to wait up for Dad (he should be home before midnight) so I'm going back to the TV. Hope you guys are having more eventful Saturday nights. Haha, I suck.
So let's catch up on May, shall we?
2nd: Couple of really major events. One, the conformation that I'm an idiot. I decided it would be a good idea to blow off the afternoon. Why? Good question. I had a reason for science- Sarah and Jen were driving me crazy because they wanted to do the project we were and they expected us to switch and the teacher was also getting my back up- but music? Why?? First of all, Chris is there, so it's not like I skipped to be with him. Second, I love the teacher. Third, it's easy. So what was my logic? No idea. If it had just been science I probably could have gone home. But I didn't. And I got caught. 5 minutes before the bell. The lunch monitor (Kathy- she lives on my street- who I can't stand) told on us when we were in the café but we managed to sneak out before Mr. Ball appeared. We avoided him the whole afternoon, until he saw us going upstairs. Actually, he only saw me, the others had gone ahead (Toni, Chris, Holly) but I saw no point in running so I just called Holly back (Chris and Toni- also skipping- have the other VP so he didn't care) and he took us to the office and yelled at us. Called our moms. Basically said he expected it from Holly but was disappointed in me. So my parents were furious, but, being the cold hearted manipulator I can be, I cried my way out of it and claimed it was the stress of Sarah bullying me. (Sure, she's a bitch, but it's not like she singles me out. She's mostly after Holly. I can deal with her.) The main thing was they said I couldn't go to the coffeehouse, and it was the last one, so I couldn't miss it! After promising I'd go for extra help in math, work hard in science, go to all my classes, come home right after school all week- they let me go.
And I had an amazing time. As always, the performers were awesome. First was this long haired pretty boy who played guitar and sang, and then another emo boy who played piano and sang- Death Cab For Cutie, Passenger Seat- very nice. Then Shamus did some of his funny songs- one about street hockey that had a line "yeah, it's way better than getting drunk, stoned, or laid." He's so wonderfully inappropriate. While the next group was setting up (nine or ten guys with various guitars and stuff- they just seemed to be randomly jamming- and a guy who sat there and said "Blood, red, blood on my hand, red, blood on the carpet, red, blood" over and over in a creepy voice) one of the math teachers rapped- hilarious. And then two guys did "Rapper's delight". Sam, a girl that can really sing and play guitar, decided to play while the next guys were messing with the sound- Ms. Curran said we really needed some estrogen. And then Dan's band played- they called themselves the "five funky fishes and their fun friends, yo". They made it up in the café that afternoon. Also, there were three of them. But they were good. And then Dan played on his own. One of his songs he'd written himself. And he said it was for someone in the audience. And I happen to know it was for me. Awkward… but sweet, I suppose. Then Evan's band- and Mike screamed. I didn't know he could do that and I also didn't know Evan could sing like that! And I also didn't know Chris and him are cousins! I can see the resemblance, though. What do I have about the boys in that family? (Random thing- I found out Devon is dating Ryan! The guy I used to like! I so never saw them together, but it actually looks pretty cute. No jealousy on my part either- I really don't know why I ever saw him as anything more than a friend. Rebound, for sure.)
Speaking of Chris… he had five cups of coffee! And it seemed to calm him down. (I only just found out he has ADD. It really doesn't show. Usually.) He'd been so hyper walking over, jumping around and singing. It was cute, though. It was so funny, he has really ticklish knees (and for some reason it turns him on… haha) so every time he went to take a drink I'd tickle him. The first time he nearly chocked. He was getting me back for it later by sneaking up behind me and grabbing me- I said I couldn’t stand him and he said "You love me" and I said "Yeah, I do, but I don't know why!'
The coolest part of the night was that my dad let me walk home. In the dark. Guess he trust Chris. And he should. This drunk guy was walking towards us and Chris' grip tightened on my hand and his other hand slipped out of his pocket- you could tell he was ready to protect me. The guy just stumbled around us grinning, but still. He was so happy all the way home- all the guitar stuff made him hyper. I love him like that- he has the best smile.
So the afternoon sucked but the evening made up for it… it was a beautiful night.
3rd: Went to all my classes, not that I really had a choice. It was really nice and sunny, too, which made it hard. Toni and me got caramel sundaes on the way home. It was a weird day, it felt slow and fast at the same time. But it was okay. Chris played guitar for me at lunch- taught me Smoke on the Water. And I was having fun distracting him- at one point he was concentrating on a new chord and I leaned over and whispered, "How much concentration do you need for that?" and started kissing his neck. Unfortunately, he gets pretty focused, so I wasn't getting a reaction- until I licked him. He actually moaned. I love making him squirm. Speaking of guitars, I broke my first string! My high E. I was pissed, so I was playing loud, and it just snapped. I got a new one, but it made me feel… special. Yeah, I'm odd.
4th: Failed a trig test- and I mean failed. Like, under 10%. I told Chris and he said his mark in the class was lower than that. (Not true- though he did get a 13 in English.) It's kind of sad because I know he's smart- if he only tried, he could ace everything, I know it. But he just doesn't care. He's failing all his classes right now, he hardly ever goes, and he just doesn't care. Nothing I say is going to change it, either. I can only hope he'll realize his potential. I know he just wants to be a musician, but education is still important. He's so frustrating sometimes… the "but, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles" line from the Anna Nalick song fits him so well.
That reminds, something I've been meaning to do for ages- he was playing guitar at lunch and he looked so pretty- and luckily I had my camera with me. So here's my baby with his baby. (Okay, actually just a random guitar from the music room, but he loves anything with strings.) And other random pictures from lunch.
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/cameronanddonald.jpg (Cameron and Donald in his pretty pretty blue shirt- okay, I think this is actually a week or so old but I just love Donald in that shirt. Not sexually. It's just a really pretty color! And, yeah, he looks hot in it. I tried to unbutton it once and he got really freaked out, haha. He's mildly scared of him, but I just love the little bunny.)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/hollyandtoni.jpg (Toni and Holly! My bestest girlfriends in the world. Holly's the one on the left in the slutty black shirt. I love that shirt. Especially on her. Yeah, leave me alone, I think one of my best friends is hot. Yeah, I've kissed her. But, shh, don't remind Chris, he gets jealous, haha.)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris1.jpg (Cute little emo boy with his guitar!)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris3.jpg (Sigh, he's got such pretty hair)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris4.jpg ("Oh, lookie, a car! I wanna chase it!!" Yeah, he actually said that, haha)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris5.jpg (This is what happens when you say, "Look, Chris, I've got a camera!" I guess that's his surprised face, haha)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris7.jpg (I like his arms)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris8.jpg (Sideways! His hair looks like an upsidedown bluebell!)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris9.jpg (He's in the corner... *evil smile*)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris11.jpg (And he says he's not emo, tsk tsk)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris12.jpg (Alisha said something and he was "oohing" haha)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris13.jpg (He looks small. But he's not. 5"8. But nice and slender.)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris15.jpg (He has such pretty hair!!)
http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f382/ixdontxevenxlikexsnails/Chris/chris16.jpg (I just like commenting on how pretty he is... haha)
My two favorite ones won't upload for some reason so I'll have to add them later. And I must get a pic of him with his black shirt unbuttoned... yeah, I'm swooning here. Moving on!
The rest of the day was pretty slow- Tiff and Alex were fighting in music (she says he grabbed her ass- it doesn't seem like something he'd do, but I'm not getting involved) and Sarah and Jen were being bitches in science, asking if me and Holly were virgins and telling me I should dump Chris because they think he has an anger management problem. (Maybe he does, but it's not like he'd direct it at me.) They said he's a women beater. I nearly said, "Well, you don't have to worry, then." Like I'd take relationship advice from whores. Only other interesting thing was that at lunch Dan said one of his hands was named Jill… not sure if he knew I was listening but I was thoroughly freaked me out. We haven't really talked since me and Chris got back together… he keeps glaring every time he sees us. He's a good friend and all, but geez… I hate the way guys get when they've been rejected.
Alex and Chris were over after school and that was fun- we mainly just played with Franny and Chris messed around with the piano but it was still fun. Then my mom came in and wouldn't leave us alone which was dumb- I mean, Alex was there, like anything was going to happen. And she kept asking what they wanted to do with their futures and stuff. Alex is a talker, though, so he kept her busy. Me and Chris just kept exchanging "I wish they weren't here" glances. I did kiss him before he left and I think Mom might have seen but I don't really care. If she knew that an innocent little kiss is really tame for us she'd have a heart attack.
5th: Went shopping with my mom which is never fun, but I got two new shirts- a pink Tinkerbell one with "not so innocent" on it and this really pretty lavender tank-top with ruffles and a silky bow. Four dollars in clearance! I love bargains. The rest of the day was spend playing guitar (I'm learning All You Wanted by Michelle Branch, Dirty Little Secret by The All-American Rejects and Marching Bands Of Manhattan by Death Cab for Cutie) and working on my Piczo site. I'm going back to a Tinkerbell theme. Also I made a random list of songs that remind me of Chris:
Fever- Michael Buble's version (It's the whole fever/kisses thing)
Heaven- dj Sammy (ongoing joke from music class- a few of the boys learned it on piano and play it all the time- it annoys the hell out of me so Chris decided to learn it on guitar- it's kind of become our song, even though it drives me insane)
Back In Black- AC/DC (one of his favorite songs- and it just fits him perfectly)
As Lovers Go- Dashboard Confessionals (I'm not really sure why this makes me think of him- it always has, though… maybe it's the "don't complicate it by hesitating" bit.)
Don't Fear The Reaper- HIM (It's his favorite thing to practice on guitar and it's just really pretty… like him.)
Don't worry, I'm not so obsessed that I usually make lists like that. Holly does. I found a list once about why she loves Justin and among "sensitive, funny, good kisser" was "tame". She still denies it, but I swear it said that. No idea what she meant by it, not sure I want to know, haha. It's kind of cute, though. I have to admit they're cute together, even though he annoys the hell out of me and they really need to get a room. The kissing- ugh! Chris isn't into PDA and we're hardly ever alone so we're not like that. And I'm okay with that. It makes it more fun the few times we are alone… speaking of which, I'm hoping my parents aren't around sometime soon because I'd like a repeat of last weekend.
Today- Went shopping but Mom wouldn't let Dad buy me anything. Though he said he'd take me out again next weekend. I want a black Beatles shirt and a black Tinkerbell shirt and these adorable pink and yellow Piglet pajamas that say "tickled pink" on them from Wal-mart and there's a million things I want from Winners. I swear, I could spend a few thousand in that store. My favorite was this black tank-top that said "Goodbye Kitty" on it. So awesome. We also looked at cellphones- they had this really sleek silver Samsung (alliteration!) that I love. Dad said we'd talk about it next weekend. Then we went grocery shopping and I saw Jen and Sarah which was annoying, but I ignored them. I wish I had a job- Jen works there. Stupid sixteen year olds. Only six more months, but still… I need money!
Oh, and I had another pregnancy dream last night… Chris wasn't the father, though. Matt was. Except his name was Ryan. Weird, hmm? And in the dream I told Chris and he said it didn't count as cheating unless I liked the sex. I also told him "Ryan" had raped me and he said he was going to shoot him. But I said he couldn't because we were going to Chester to get married so the baby would have a real family. What the hell? And Chester? There's so many things wrong with that. Dreams are so… proof that I'm insane, haha.
My fingers are tired from all this typing and my ears are tired from blasting MCR and my brain is tired from being semi-aware. I still have another hour till Drawn Together is on so I think I'll read for a while. Inkheart is an awesome book- thanks for lending it to me, Toni! I'm going to listen to the rain, too… it was really nice and wet today. I had to change so many times because I kept going out and getting soaked, but it was lovely. I wish Chris had been around because the kissing would have been way hot… oh well, it'll rain again. And maybe the sun will come out someday, too! I want to wear a skirt. (Except last time I wore a skirt Alex kept picking me up… and I'm sure Cameron would go crazy over my legs… I really need some girlfriends. My guy friends are all lovely, but total perverts. Then again… so am I. No wonder we get along so well.)
Edit: Awesome Drawn Together- Xandir decided to tell his parents he was gay so Toot and Captain Hero were role playing with him. It got thoroughly messed up and even had Xandir as a whore- which was pretty hot. I missed the last five minutes, though, because my mom came in and started talking at me and I had to switch the channal because she'd go on and on about how inappropriate it is for a 15 year old to be watching a 18+ show. Pfft, if only she knew what I usually watch on Saturday nights… anyway! I'm going to wait up for Dad (he should be home before midnight) so I'm going back to the TV. Hope you guys are having more eventful Saturday nights. Haha, I suck.