A photo album, A movie script~
I honestly need to thank that i have some of the best people around me ever and to be really such an anus have only just come to realize how lucky iam.these people are the coffe and cream of my tea and always back me up no matter what and when they know im down they comfort me and when im away from home they make me feel like im at home again.comftable.at ease.they also get me extreamly merry beyond belief hahaha!no word of a lie no word of a lie i cant rember how bad i have been and still alive in a long time.this is so hard to type.guys honestly not meaning to freak you out of some homosexsual non homophobic way i care about you guys so badly and thank you again.they know who they are.leg-ends!
im in such a wierd mood and not sure if im about to laugh be sick or cry.my night out was jadded by a few facts such as a guy when i was on my own coming out the toilets and some random guys decided to through a praticurly half pint of water at my back and i think he called me an emo bastard or something like emo is shit, i couldnt believe it i was so shocked and im sorry this is so typical im sure and would of been what the guy would of love to seen.if he hadnt run away!.nearly break down in tears it was humilateing and just made me feel more self conciouse then ever.i swear people must think im so vain and up my self because all night i couldnt/cant stop playing with my hair and its not because i heart <3 myself its because i feel awkward as fook nowerdays and get so paranoid when people look at me because i cant tell if there just looking at me like im just some lanky geeky mess or just its me being paranoid and them not even looking at me lol!its just becoming really stressfull like i have to praticurly live up to this thing and now its some retarded mad fad which makes me feel oh er eeks abused even and like im being rapid of my indentity im sure that sounds really gay but it was such a rape of ego when that guy did what he did.i couldnt help but constantly thinking about my grandma i felt so so so shit about not being able to see her today i saw the photos my dad took of her when he went and she looks so bad it was a propper gut renching moement, and i have to see her soon because and ive been told to expect it passes away soon and i dont get to say bye and yeesh im sure i sound well cheesy but love you and jazz i wouldnt be able to live with myself.she doesnt deserve it.so many times i had to go to the toilets and gather myself up and carry on.i really i really hate this but came out of character and got so annoyed and angry and eeks ready to bang heads because of that guy and if i saw him well just i cant thank god enough now didnt because i would of been litrually killed lol and i despise violence really.just all got a bit OTTP and im sure the amazingness of being so drunk didnt help either lol!i saw kay tonight and i havent seen her at city for agessssss and havent even really spoke to her for quite a while apart froma couple nights ago on msn but twas amazing to see her about and jazz she is one hella classy lassy.hm i saw adam and the spondons guys as well that was amazing although one was giving me his number incase i ever wanted to buy coke,wtf hahahaha?!that was crazy was amazing to see adam though hes a really cool down to earth guy and i need to buck up my attitude and skate with him again its always hilarouse specailly when he gets his specail brew out lol!eastwood boys out again tonight cool to see them about as usual fooking gangstars!im ahem merry btw still oops!madem la nici twas there as well braveing the illness and i even brought her a drink to make sure she gets better lol!i never buy people drinks yeesh!im well loveing the fact i do get to speak to her more often now and do feel pretty comftable about her and shes a super amazing classy lassy twas wierd and im not even sure if she knows this but a couple months probberly ago i wouldnt even dare speak to her lol because i was so embarressed =S.that sounded really weak lol!.think the alcohol made her feel better anywhos lol and everytime i saw her some guy was trying to grind with her.what P.I.M.P lol!got to speak to gemma again feels like its been ages since ive seen her or speak to her and twas nice to finally get the chance too.chai and sam out too both fooking wrecked out thier faces lol ahem i wasnt that much of being as bad as them lol ahem twas mucho cool always a pleasure to see the originals about.laura was out is nice seeing her about although dont get what her txt was about lol got to rember to reply when i wake up or itll just confuse but im far to tierd and not in the fit state to reply now.lol!.spoke to helly for quite a while now and we sorted out some malarky and actually really quite liked the talk we had did cover quite a bit me thinks lol!i felt horrible when i saw her crying and heard some of the malarky that went down really a tear jearky lol.phw i so sound like a cry baby lol!saw the man that is rob mann about always cool to see him down and used to be kinda awkward between us but hes sucha nice and cool guy and always welcoming lol.felt really crappy to see him down because i think he was.im sure ive probberly forgotten some details about city tonight like how everyone was royally fooked me thinks lol!was a laugh.drank too much.smoked to much.did too much.but as in the words of scatt you can never doo to much lol!hardcore mother truckers!
by the ways i hate buses was so flipping late because the retards have decided to close the bridge down thier always closeing it down so it makes the journay to and from nottingham and well anywhere i want to go tripple the amount of time!yeesh!on the bus back i was so nearly passing out and trying to avoid falling to asleep lol i must of looked such a sorry state.there was such a big mouthed obnouixse crud i spelt that one totally wrong but hope you know what i mean,american guy he was so annoying lol i just about was ready to scream at him to tame the trap,oh er!
anyways guess that leads me up to now contemplateing on night i wasnt even sure up untill really the last moement if i was going to par take in the nights festivites because felt really low but glad i did apart from the occasional sucky low moements it was really enjoyable and had a good time and plucked my spirits and forget things for a while =)!lol just noticed when took my coat off i have a ninety nine times sticker on my tshirt lol every cool cat had one on tonight and there where a hell of a lot lol lee and scatt and plattsey must of brought over like 200 hundred or something stupid lol and nearly everysingle one was donned by some one.sure im forgetting something lol =S
read a certain some ones entry on here just say shes a class-ee i think thats how you spell it lol lady.not makeing it too ov lol!embarressing myself.and i really hope because not sure if i did kind of upset her maybe about last night with the hole me never seeing her at the rescue rooms eeks =S really guilty/bad and i hope you knows i honestly couldnt helped it.i really wanted to see her again that night ahem.alot of her entry really made me beam and happy im just happy she even speaks to me lol because im way sure i must of kind of freaked her out or something.prehaps like i might be doing now =S!i couldnt believe it when she said she was suprised i replied or want to see her again?!lol shes crazy of course i do i know i can be pretty freaking retarded sometimes but im not that bad yet to not want to see or get in contact with her lol!ahem stupidly blushing now and hope it is me in her entry lol because i feel so incredabley argh just stoopid lol if not.just being paranoid.iam going to post a comment on her entry but thought best leave it for now because far to tierd drunk and well yeah you know all that malarky and actually want it to make sense because this ramble probberly hasnt lol and try and not humiliate myself anymore.
im drinking so much fanta is revolting.here im going to list the songs ive had on repeat since ive been in and lol some of them im pretty embarressed and ashamed to say ive actually been listening too lol =S.
The ataris.the saddest song.
the ataris.san dimas highschool football rules(classis me thinks =S.
the ataris.broken promise ring.
taking back sunday.cute with out the e[cut from the team] scenster song im sure.but these probberly all are =S.
taking back sunday.great romances of the 20th century.
death cab for cutie.a movie script ending.
finch.ender (acoustic) quote:im a sucker for anything acoustic.
further seems forever.pictures of shorelines.
i might just make an ultra jazzed up cd of this to remember this night~still unsure if twas a good or bad night lol.
well ill shut up now and probberly pass out in bed this has taken me so long and its 12 minutes past 5 in the morning,stupid o'clock lol!but has helped me i swear from being sick,eww!oh also saw this lassy i know tonight well shes messaged me on faceparty shes like pretty old lol but she was saying she always see's me at city but will never say hi,am i that unaproachable lol...honestly =S.
still happy about her entry =).shhh.
im in such a wierd mood and not sure if im about to laugh be sick or cry.my night out was jadded by a few facts such as a guy when i was on my own coming out the toilets and some random guys decided to through a praticurly half pint of water at my back and i think he called me an emo bastard or something like emo is shit, i couldnt believe it i was so shocked and im sorry this is so typical im sure and would of been what the guy would of love to seen.if he hadnt run away!.nearly break down in tears it was humilateing and just made me feel more self conciouse then ever.i swear people must think im so vain and up my self because all night i couldnt/cant stop playing with my hair and its not because i heart <3 myself its because i feel awkward as fook nowerdays and get so paranoid when people look at me because i cant tell if there just looking at me like im just some lanky geeky mess or just its me being paranoid and them not even looking at me lol!its just becoming really stressfull like i have to praticurly live up to this thing and now its some retarded mad fad which makes me feel oh er eeks abused even and like im being rapid of my indentity im sure that sounds really gay but it was such a rape of ego when that guy did what he did.i couldnt help but constantly thinking about my grandma i felt so so so shit about not being able to see her today i saw the photos my dad took of her when he went and she looks so bad it was a propper gut renching moement, and i have to see her soon because and ive been told to expect it passes away soon and i dont get to say bye and yeesh im sure i sound well cheesy but love you and jazz i wouldnt be able to live with myself.she doesnt deserve it.so many times i had to go to the toilets and gather myself up and carry on.i really i really hate this but came out of character and got so annoyed and angry and eeks ready to bang heads because of that guy and if i saw him well just i cant thank god enough now didnt because i would of been litrually killed lol and i despise violence really.just all got a bit OTTP and im sure the amazingness of being so drunk didnt help either lol!i saw kay tonight and i havent seen her at city for agessssss and havent even really spoke to her for quite a while apart froma couple nights ago on msn but twas amazing to see her about and jazz she is one hella classy lassy.hm i saw adam and the spondons guys as well that was amazing although one was giving me his number incase i ever wanted to buy coke,wtf hahahaha?!that was crazy was amazing to see adam though hes a really cool down to earth guy and i need to buck up my attitude and skate with him again its always hilarouse specailly when he gets his specail brew out lol!eastwood boys out again tonight cool to see them about as usual fooking gangstars!im ahem merry btw still oops!madem la nici twas there as well braveing the illness and i even brought her a drink to make sure she gets better lol!i never buy people drinks yeesh!im well loveing the fact i do get to speak to her more often now and do feel pretty comftable about her and shes a super amazing classy lassy twas wierd and im not even sure if she knows this but a couple months probberly ago i wouldnt even dare speak to her lol because i was so embarressed =S.that sounded really weak lol!.think the alcohol made her feel better anywhos lol and everytime i saw her some guy was trying to grind with her.what P.I.M.P lol!got to speak to gemma again feels like its been ages since ive seen her or speak to her and twas nice to finally get the chance too.chai and sam out too both fooking wrecked out thier faces lol ahem i wasnt that much of being as bad as them lol ahem twas mucho cool always a pleasure to see the originals about.laura was out is nice seeing her about although dont get what her txt was about lol got to rember to reply when i wake up or itll just confuse but im far to tierd and not in the fit state to reply now.lol!.spoke to helly for quite a while now and we sorted out some malarky and actually really quite liked the talk we had did cover quite a bit me thinks lol!i felt horrible when i saw her crying and heard some of the malarky that went down really a tear jearky lol.phw i so sound like a cry baby lol!saw the man that is rob mann about always cool to see him down and used to be kinda awkward between us but hes sucha nice and cool guy and always welcoming lol.felt really crappy to see him down because i think he was.im sure ive probberly forgotten some details about city tonight like how everyone was royally fooked me thinks lol!was a laugh.drank too much.smoked to much.did too much.but as in the words of scatt you can never doo to much lol!hardcore mother truckers!
by the ways i hate buses was so flipping late because the retards have decided to close the bridge down thier always closeing it down so it makes the journay to and from nottingham and well anywhere i want to go tripple the amount of time!yeesh!on the bus back i was so nearly passing out and trying to avoid falling to asleep lol i must of looked such a sorry state.there was such a big mouthed obnouixse crud i spelt that one totally wrong but hope you know what i mean,american guy he was so annoying lol i just about was ready to scream at him to tame the trap,oh er!
anyways guess that leads me up to now contemplateing on night i wasnt even sure up untill really the last moement if i was going to par take in the nights festivites because felt really low but glad i did apart from the occasional sucky low moements it was really enjoyable and had a good time and plucked my spirits and forget things for a while =)!lol just noticed when took my coat off i have a ninety nine times sticker on my tshirt lol every cool cat had one on tonight and there where a hell of a lot lol lee and scatt and plattsey must of brought over like 200 hundred or something stupid lol and nearly everysingle one was donned by some one.sure im forgetting something lol =S
read a certain some ones entry on here just say shes a class-ee i think thats how you spell it lol lady.not makeing it too ov lol!embarressing myself.and i really hope because not sure if i did kind of upset her maybe about last night with the hole me never seeing her at the rescue rooms eeks =S really guilty/bad and i hope you knows i honestly couldnt helped it.i really wanted to see her again that night ahem.alot of her entry really made me beam and happy im just happy she even speaks to me lol because im way sure i must of kind of freaked her out or something.prehaps like i might be doing now =S!i couldnt believe it when she said she was suprised i replied or want to see her again?!lol shes crazy of course i do i know i can be pretty freaking retarded sometimes but im not that bad yet to not want to see or get in contact with her lol!ahem stupidly blushing now and hope it is me in her entry lol because i feel so incredabley argh just stoopid lol if not.just being paranoid.iam going to post a comment on her entry but thought best leave it for now because far to tierd drunk and well yeah you know all that malarky and actually want it to make sense because this ramble probberly hasnt lol and try and not humiliate myself anymore.
im drinking so much fanta is revolting.here im going to list the songs ive had on repeat since ive been in and lol some of them im pretty embarressed and ashamed to say ive actually been listening too lol =S.
The ataris.the saddest song.
the ataris.san dimas highschool football rules(classis me thinks =S.
the ataris.broken promise ring.
taking back sunday.cute with out the e[cut from the team] scenster song im sure.but these probberly all are =S.
taking back sunday.great romances of the 20th century.
death cab for cutie.a movie script ending.
finch.ender (acoustic) quote:im a sucker for anything acoustic.
further seems forever.pictures of shorelines.
i might just make an ultra jazzed up cd of this to remember this night~still unsure if twas a good or bad night lol.
well ill shut up now and probberly pass out in bed this has taken me so long and its 12 minutes past 5 in the morning,stupid o'clock lol!but has helped me i swear from being sick,eww!oh also saw this lassy i know tonight well shes messaged me on faceparty shes like pretty old lol but she was saying she always see's me at city but will never say hi,am i that unaproachable lol...honestly =S.
still happy about her entry =).shhh.