I really dont care anymore
Im sick of everything hurting me all the time, Im sick of hearing words that mean nothing I want honesty for once in my life i want people to tell me how they honestly feel about me, and I dont care what people think anymore I dont care about a lot of shit right now, Brandon is my main concern but yet i want happiness for myself but yet it will never happen even though everyone says i deserve it, HA arent they big fools I dont deserve anything except death one day, hopefully soon... errr I cant deal with this shit anymore.. it is to god damn painful. Brandon is really fussy lately and theres nothing I can do about it, nothing I do seems to work I feel so incompitent when it comes to babys, especially mine.. i dont know anymore ill just keep doing my best only for him though.. i dont know i want to Not be Alone anymore.. haha Ill always be alone so who am i trying to kid?
later
Mandy
later
Mandy