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[xsickofthepainx]

Im not happy. I may seem happy at school....Im not happy by one bit. I feel so heavy inside and I cant make the feeling go away...I feel so lonely. I feel so pathetic because I if I dont like someone, or if I know that no one likes me...then I feel hideous. I feel disgusting. I feel like Im not good enough for anyone

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Don't be daft

[anonymous]

I dont have a clue who you are - randomly clicked on the "most recent updates" link on the homepage and read yours. (I think you were number 3 at the time) but anyway I just wanted to say hi :) Thought I might perk you up a bit...unlikely but possible. I haven't used livejournal in ages, well probably not since last year some time. I used to have the most random updates - sometimes I was a bit depressed (like you sound now) and other times I was just writing stupid things that came into my head (I was always happy writing stupid things). (typical.....I decided to leave a message to cheer you up and I end up talking about myself

Re: Don't be daft

[xsickofthepainx]

thank you anonymous person. you just made my day.
:)

[onthebrghtsde73]

How do you know that no one likes you? It's not like they are going to come right out and be like "Hey I like you". It's not like that most of the time.

And seriously you ARE gorgeous. You don't have to believe me but I seriously think you are.

Ugly people don't have friends in case you didn't notice!! See how many friends you have? You have like 823659873649857!! I can't think of anyone that isn't friends with you.

Judging that it's me saying what I'm about to say and seeing as it doesn't seem right coming from me just work with it. There are times when you won't have a boyfriend. I never even had one before Justin. There are times when I wish I didn't have one because I just have too much to do and I don't have the time.

Just try to keep busy darling and be yourself. You'll find the one. You're only 14. You have many many years ahead of you. At this age very few of us will find the one we are supposed to be with.

I love you and I hope things get better. Anytime you need to talk, I'll listen.

-Michelle

[xsickofthepainx]

you made me feel a lot better.

thank you.

I love you.

[onthebrghtsde73]

...I hope so.

The random Mexican with the fro at the party?
Psht who knows.
Some AMS 7th grader.

[divabelly6]

Amanda darling, I know exactly how you feel! The same thing happens to me. People tell me how pretty I am and how beautiful and I just don't see it a lot of the time. I think the same way as you, if I was so pretty than why does no one like me? Why don't I have a boyfriend? Why haven't I been asked out? You know, when it comes to the boyfriend perspective, I think I may have it worse. I haven't had a boyfriend in OVER a year! I don't get what's wrong with me. I think I must not be pretty and it must be something wrong with my personality. I go to school, I sit through the same classes you do. I don't talk very much to people I don't know love me. I look at all the "popular" kids and I just don't get it. I find most of them extremely annoying yet I'm not "good" enough to be talked to by them. It's pathetic. I hate going to school everyday and seeing them. I can't wait until we have summer then when we go back hopefully we won't be stuck with the same people

[xsickofthepainx]

Kristy,

I love you and you always make me feel SO much better.

You and I will find boys this summer.
Not gay ones that go to our school..

Beautiful ones :)

[onthebrghtsde73]

Ok

Take out the shotguns. We're a going emo boy hunting this summer. No prisoners!

Gotta catch one for Amanda and one for Kristy.
That is my summer goal.

[xsickofthepainx]

I AM SO EXCITED TO GO EMO BOY HUTING :-D

we wont stop until we find one..

NO EFFING PRISONERS.