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Feeling many desires. Intese ones.
First off. The need for attention. For self acceptance. From the opposite sex that is. I think that is why I'm spending so much time on a certain site, taking pictures of myself. I use that as one way to make myself feel pretty. I have always struggled with needing boys to make myself feel beautiful, and it seems to have gotten worse.
The yearning for change. Change of name on livejournal. But also slightly larger changes. I plan on dyeing my hair black again. Not going to cut it short, I want it to get as long as possible.
I find myself isolating once again.
So lonely.
Unhappy.
It's Christmas and I just want to cry.
First off. The need for attention. For self acceptance. From the opposite sex that is. I think that is why I'm spending so much time on a certain site, taking pictures of myself. I use that as one way to make myself feel pretty. I have always struggled with needing boys to make myself feel beautiful, and it seems to have gotten worse.
The yearning for change. Change of name on livejournal. But also slightly larger changes. I plan on dyeing my hair black again. Not going to cut it short, I want it to get as long as possible.
I find myself isolating once again.
So lonely.
Unhappy.
It's Christmas and I just want to cry.