Gotta have faith...
So i dont know where im at right now... There are ups and downs... You fall, and then you get back up.. One of my friends told me tonight that i shouldn't give up, not to loose faith... And you know what.. She's right... I cant give up on Christian... I cant give up on everything that I had with him... If i were to do that.. I would be a complete fool...... You know i guess that saying of " you dont know what you have until you loose it" is true.. Because I didn't know what I had in Christian until I lost him... I knew of some, but not everything...
So i guess what i'll do is just move on, but not loose faith... Not moving on to the fact that i forget about him, but so i have fun, and enjoy life as it is.. I've missed out on so much, that its crazy... I have faith that he's coming back, as hard as it is for me to believe, i have it... And its my close close friends who reassure me of that... I love Christian to much to just throw everything away... And i wont do it... No matter how much I cry, or hurt inside... I wont throw it away for a long long long time... Dont you just love being in love? It's wiked crazy...
So i guess what i'll do is just move on, but not loose faith... Not moving on to the fact that i forget about him, but so i have fun, and enjoy life as it is.. I've missed out on so much, that its crazy... I have faith that he's coming back, as hard as it is for me to believe, i have it... And its my close close friends who reassure me of that... I love Christian to much to just throw everything away... And i wont do it... No matter how much I cry, or hurt inside... I wont throw it away for a long long long time... Dont you just love being in love? It's wiked crazy...