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okay so in the last entry i kindof lied... Im so giving up on Christian... I still love him and he'll always have a piece of my heart, but seriously, i cant go on like this... Last night i cried over him for the first time in a couple of weeks... You know, its hard... Trying to say goodbye to something so perfect, that you didn't even know was over... Last night i thought about trowing his picture against the wall but then i thought, no its such a pretty frame... So i just took all of his pictures out of the frames and put them away... I guess its kindof helping me not looking at his picture everyday... Everyone knows not to say his name around me... not to talk about him... which also helps... I talked to anthony for the first time for a while last night, and he told me something very true... I love talking to him, because he gives me the best advice out of everyone... You know, sometimes i think that he's the one that im set out to be with, but then again, i dont... But i know that i'll always have him to turn to in time of need... ahhh early morning, gotta rest.. until next time...