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i miss him so much i think my heart is physically aching.
ive done distance before, but for some reason, its different this time. i get tears in my eyes just thinking about it. before it was so hypothetical, it seemed so far away. i could still hug him, kiss him, lay my head on his chest and talk to him about it. now im 3000 miles away, and it hurts so bad i have no words. i cannot believe were going to go two months without seeing each other. thats a little less than a third of our relationship.
i know its going to be okay. i know that i can do this. and even though hes not so good at expressing himself in writing, even though ill be 10,000 miles away in china for half of the time, even though he hates being on the phone.. i know its going to be okay. so why am i so emotional? maybe its that im on my period, maybe its that my entire relationship with him has been in person face to face, but its just so strange, because i have done distance before. ive survived 400 miles, 3000 miles, 8000 miles while i was traveling with my family over winter break. so why do these next two months intimidate me more than words can express?
i miss him so much. i miss my friends, i miss boston [minus the down pouring rain]. being home is great, but i would get right back on a plane if i could.
ive done distance before, but for some reason, its different this time. i get tears in my eyes just thinking about it. before it was so hypothetical, it seemed so far away. i could still hug him, kiss him, lay my head on his chest and talk to him about it. now im 3000 miles away, and it hurts so bad i have no words. i cannot believe were going to go two months without seeing each other. thats a little less than a third of our relationship.
i know its going to be okay. i know that i can do this. and even though hes not so good at expressing himself in writing, even though ill be 10,000 miles away in china for half of the time, even though he hates being on the phone.. i know its going to be okay. so why am i so emotional? maybe its that im on my period, maybe its that my entire relationship with him has been in person face to face, but its just so strange, because i have done distance before. ive survived 400 miles, 3000 miles, 8000 miles while i was traveling with my family over winter break. so why do these next two months intimidate me more than words can express?
i miss him so much. i miss my friends, i miss boston [minus the down pouring rain]. being home is great, but i would get right back on a plane if i could.