oh man...its been so fucking long. i feel like i have no one but you. whoa...de ja vu. this has been the worst holiday season ever. i'm so stressed out from work and spending my first christmas home alone is killing me. hes not here anymore...i don't even believe it. its been what...almost a year. wow. it hurts to even write that ( Read more... )

listen to this song if you love me.

www.myspace.com/aredcarpetaffair

so this is what its like to know what i want...

" Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind
but it don't get no better as each day go by "

my overnight bag turned into a workout bag, in what seems seconds.

ccc.

She sits alone by a lamppost
Trying to find a thought thats escaped her mind
She says Dads the one I love the most
But Stipes not far behind
She never lets me in
Only tells me where shes been
When shes had too much to drink
I say that I dont care
I just run my hands through her dark hair
Then I pray to God you gotta help me fly away
And just...
chorus:
Let her ( Read more... )

she went in the back to get high.

i sat down on my couch and cried.
(hootie and the blowfish: let her cry.)

i wrote this on january 28th in an entry.  its blocked.  but i just read this part today.
 i feel like posting it.  ... .. i feel like reading it everyday.

".. the truth is.. i like him a lot. when i'm sad he brings me flowers.. when i'm hungry he brings me food.. every impulse i have he remembers and does something to get me whatever it is i want ( Read more... )

we all know the girls that i am talking about
well they are time bombs and they are ticking
and the only question's when they'll blow up
and they'll blow up; we know that without a doubt
cause they're those girls, yeah you know those girls that let their emotions get the best of them

and i've contrived some sort of a plan to help my fellow man
let's get ( Read more... )

how do you even have the nerve to say what sheets i put on the bed??? ugh. i am in such a bad mood, and after yelling in the phone and a very obnoxious hang up(by me..) i decide that right here is where i belong. it has been exactly three months and 7 day since i have been "in a relationship".. life has been up and down. usually just down ( Read more... )

86 the "u"