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i am not sure what is going on. there is a definite flow. movements and objects and events pass me by. even though i don't understand how i got here, it doesn't hurt. i have a confused heart. i want to, and i try to always, follow what i feel inside this muscle of love (did you hear? i love you all). but right now, i can't understand the murmurs and the beating.
it just drums to keep me alive.
my lungs starve to breathe you in. my lungs starve to breathe you in. my lungs starve to breathe you in. cancer.
but mostly i think i'm just waiting. i wasn't made to be aggressive. i wasn't made to step on toes. i am patient. (patient, doctor, patient, doctor. treat me.)
my jaw is tensing up and i think it's the cause of my headache. i really don't like sleep. i hope you are not a dream.
it just drums to keep me alive.
my lungs starve to breathe you in. my lungs starve to breathe you in. my lungs starve to breathe you in. cancer.
but mostly i think i'm just waiting. i wasn't made to be aggressive. i wasn't made to step on toes. i am patient. (patient, doctor, patient, doctor. treat me.)
my jaw is tensing up and i think it's the cause of my headache. i really don't like sleep. i hope you are not a dream.