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But I fell for the promise of a life with a purpose
But I know that that's impossible now
And so I drink to stay warm, and to kill selected memories
'Cause I just can’t think anymore about that, or about her tonight
there is this throbbing in the corner of my skull, behind my eye. it reminds me that i need to open the cabinet again, soon. i am worse, i am sick, i am tired. at night, i dread sleep. i call people to keep me from feeling alone. in the morning, i dread waking up. there is nothing more serene than escape. but i can't forget. i'd like to be away from this place, now.
i'm leaving for a visit to san fransisco/the bay area on friday morning. i am counting on that trip to change the way i've been living. maybe it will open my eyes to a brighter future, with brighter things and brighter people.
but then again, there is always hope:
amanda is one of my favorite people in the whole world, if not the numero uno.
karina has learned how to fly.
she flys, she flys.
we left innocence in the sand box.
so this was the park, a few days ago. this is why i live. i love my friends so much. there is no abscence in my heart when i am around them.
call me, so i can sleep.
But I know that that's impossible now
And so I drink to stay warm, and to kill selected memories
'Cause I just can’t think anymore about that, or about her tonight
there is this throbbing in the corner of my skull, behind my eye. it reminds me that i need to open the cabinet again, soon. i am worse, i am sick, i am tired. at night, i dread sleep. i call people to keep me from feeling alone. in the morning, i dread waking up. there is nothing more serene than escape. but i can't forget. i'd like to be away from this place, now.
i'm leaving for a visit to san fransisco/the bay area on friday morning. i am counting on that trip to change the way i've been living. maybe it will open my eyes to a brighter future, with brighter things and brighter people.
but then again, there is always hope:
amanda is one of my favorite people in the whole world, if not the numero uno.
karina has learned how to fly.
she flys, she flys.
we left innocence in the sand box.
so this was the park, a few days ago. this is why i live. i love my friends so much. there is no abscence in my heart when i am around them.
call me, so i can sleep.