so disappointed
ok so isaac didnt actually get to maryland until yesturday. but its alright im kinda upset with him right now.
you think if a guy almost promotes his cousin cheating on his girl hed cheat on you? most likely. i feel like i wasted a whole lot of time but at the same time i feel like i might be over thinking the situation and shit i mean he was kinda good to me. last night was def good he bought a bottle of wine we got a hotel room at the ramada and we drank and had some sex n shit....but like he has control of this relationship and it scares me.
anyways i got a new job at Zales and this week is going to be my last week at global cellular. wo0t! ive been working a lot though and classes started so i havent really been writing alot. nothing really happened thought that was significant until tonight. well i did get in a fight with nicole and this is the email i wrote her
im not very good with the apology thing or talking to people one on one...and i never seem to see you around campus or millennium anyway, so although this is completley out of the ordinary for me i value your friendship and i miss being able to call you and say whats up even if we havent talked in like 3 days ...you know me...3 days seems like 77 days (random #) so basically i want you to know that i wasnt mad about the boy thing at all. it had NOTHING to do with the boys. i didnt care if i hooked up with erin or not. The only thing that i do feel the need to say is that he was putting my hand on his dick not the other way around so i didnt come outta nowhere with the erin wants me 2nite thing he kinda told me, as did ryan tell tovah he wanted her but apparently those boys decided to act weird. and they started acting weird when u closed the door in our face with the boys in aprils room and obviously said something to them that we couldnt hear... but neways its not about them. you've seemed pretty distant for like the past week and 1/2 and i couldnt figure it out. you didnt really call me ever, you didnt know i got the job and everyone else did or asked at least because they knew i was nervous, you walked right by me that one night said you were tired and then went to go hook up with ryan, you came over that one night when tovah and i and jess and marcelo were chillin in my room and we were about to go outside like we always do and you were "too tired" so you went back to your room changed ur away message and went up to kristens room. you were tired on my birthday and you had to work early so you left after fridays but yet somehow you found the energy to go hook up with ryan that night...dont think that didnt bother me because it did, you can talk shit about lacy fucking me over on my bday all u want but you should have said jen im going to ryans or something but that u were tired....ur excuse is ALWAYS that you're tired...its a little repetative. the other night you kicked tovah and i out, said you were all going to sleep but yet u were all still awake watching tv and chillin....even if YOU were tired...april was still up its her apartment too whyd u kick us out? and sorry for calling you a cock block i was drunk i didnt mean it like that but we kept saying send erin and ryan down but you didnt answer us. maybe you did ask them but you NEVER TOLD US U DID! u just kept your away message up so we thought u were ignoring us. and then we came to look for my keys and u practically shut the door on us like we werent allowed in to look. im just saying that ive found some of the things uve done lately kind of rude and theyve built up and rather then not tell you whats pissing me off im writing it all down so you can see exactly what did. im a little pissed and from what ive heard you are too. i dont feel i did anything wrong though so dont expect a full out apology . ill apologize for what was said online but everything else i didnt act out of line, sorry. and no nicole there wont always me drama with me and tovah when boys are involved. in fact all summer there wasnt ANY drama until 316 incident, which sorry to break it to you ...you werent even involved in. so be mad at me all you want. im not mad at you im just a little upset its nothing i wont get over. i still love you and still want to be friends with you. dont expect me to kiss your feet though because i dont feel that i did anything other then what was said online wrong. you know where i live you know my # my SN and my email, write me back anyway you'd like. id like a response at least let me know whats bothering you im in no way perfect so i know a lot of things do, you one of my best friends ill do my best to change some things around.
love,
jencat
so yea last night i went to brooklyn and picked up isaac.,...cuz i missed him....and 2day i worked and then got ready in a new oufit looked hot and went to the jadakiss d block, fat joe terror squad, nina sky, shawnna concert at school it was 92Q end of summer jam that shit was so hot! but the whole time isaac was with his cousin he almost encouraged him to cheat on his girl i dont like that....and he has WANDERING eyes i didnt like that AT ALL! and he said hed come back tonight around 1 and i feel like instead he and his cousin went to a afterparty because they were definatley grillin those invites and ike wanted to go i know that! so whatever im upset it hurts...guess that means i really liked him....i thought i could finally rest my head on something real. guess what i think i was wrong. well see 2morrow what his excuse is and how convincing it is. otherwise i have a party to go to at megs after work n shit.
so disappointed
you think if a guy almost promotes his cousin cheating on his girl hed cheat on you? most likely. i feel like i wasted a whole lot of time but at the same time i feel like i might be over thinking the situation and shit i mean he was kinda good to me. last night was def good he bought a bottle of wine we got a hotel room at the ramada and we drank and had some sex n shit....but like he has control of this relationship and it scares me.
anyways i got a new job at Zales and this week is going to be my last week at global cellular. wo0t! ive been working a lot though and classes started so i havent really been writing alot. nothing really happened thought that was significant until tonight. well i did get in a fight with nicole and this is the email i wrote her
im not very good with the apology thing or talking to people one on one...and i never seem to see you around campus or millennium anyway, so although this is completley out of the ordinary for me i value your friendship and i miss being able to call you and say whats up even if we havent talked in like 3 days ...you know me...3 days seems like 77 days (random #) so basically i want you to know that i wasnt mad about the boy thing at all. it had NOTHING to do with the boys. i didnt care if i hooked up with erin or not. The only thing that i do feel the need to say is that he was putting my hand on his dick not the other way around so i didnt come outta nowhere with the erin wants me 2nite thing he kinda told me, as did ryan tell tovah he wanted her but apparently those boys decided to act weird. and they started acting weird when u closed the door in our face with the boys in aprils room and obviously said something to them that we couldnt hear... but neways its not about them. you've seemed pretty distant for like the past week and 1/2 and i couldnt figure it out. you didnt really call me ever, you didnt know i got the job and everyone else did or asked at least because they knew i was nervous, you walked right by me that one night said you were tired and then went to go hook up with ryan, you came over that one night when tovah and i and jess and marcelo were chillin in my room and we were about to go outside like we always do and you were "too tired" so you went back to your room changed ur away message and went up to kristens room. you were tired on my birthday and you had to work early so you left after fridays but yet somehow you found the energy to go hook up with ryan that night...dont think that didnt bother me because it did, you can talk shit about lacy fucking me over on my bday all u want but you should have said jen im going to ryans or something but that u were tired....ur excuse is ALWAYS that you're tired...its a little repetative. the other night you kicked tovah and i out, said you were all going to sleep but yet u were all still awake watching tv and chillin....even if YOU were tired...april was still up its her apartment too whyd u kick us out? and sorry for calling you a cock block i was drunk i didnt mean it like that but we kept saying send erin and ryan down but you didnt answer us. maybe you did ask them but you NEVER TOLD US U DID! u just kept your away message up so we thought u were ignoring us. and then we came to look for my keys and u practically shut the door on us like we werent allowed in to look. im just saying that ive found some of the things uve done lately kind of rude and theyve built up and rather then not tell you whats pissing me off im writing it all down so you can see exactly what did. im a little pissed and from what ive heard you are too. i dont feel i did anything wrong though so dont expect a full out apology . ill apologize for what was said online but everything else i didnt act out of line, sorry. and no nicole there wont always me drama with me and tovah when boys are involved. in fact all summer there wasnt ANY drama until 316 incident, which sorry to break it to you ...you werent even involved in. so be mad at me all you want. im not mad at you im just a little upset its nothing i wont get over. i still love you and still want to be friends with you. dont expect me to kiss your feet though because i dont feel that i did anything other then what was said online wrong. you know where i live you know my # my SN and my email, write me back anyway you'd like. id like a response at least let me know whats bothering you im in no way perfect so i know a lot of things do, you one of my best friends ill do my best to change some things around.
love,
jencat
so yea last night i went to brooklyn and picked up isaac.,...cuz i missed him....and 2day i worked and then got ready in a new oufit looked hot and went to the jadakiss d block, fat joe terror squad, nina sky, shawnna concert at school it was 92Q end of summer jam that shit was so hot! but the whole time isaac was with his cousin he almost encouraged him to cheat on his girl i dont like that....and he has WANDERING eyes i didnt like that AT ALL! and he said hed come back tonight around 1 and i feel like instead he and his cousin went to a afterparty because they were definatley grillin those invites and ike wanted to go i know that! so whatever im upset it hurts...guess that means i really liked him....i thought i could finally rest my head on something real. guess what i think i was wrong. well see 2morrow what his excuse is and how convincing it is. otherwise i have a party to go to at megs after work n shit.
so disappointed