its over. im sorry not its over. its my turn now we're over.
its over.
isaac is SUCH A DOUCHE BAG! omg who would have thought he was such an angel in the beginning and now hes just a DOUCHE!
fucking mamaluke
he is trying to tell me that we were never in a relationship and that we were just on our way taking our time and whatever it ended up turning into whenever it ended up turing into something thats what it would be. he said that since feelings are involved hes not going to talk to me for a few days because i shouldnt be having any feelings! WTF! HOW COULD I NOT! and then the asshole says (4 days after he said all this) that my friend Jess ruined it for my by calling him and bitching him out even if i didnt know she did it i should control my friends and nothing could ever happen between us and he might call me up randomly to see whats up and see how im doing and i can call him *not everyday* but i can call him to see how he is and to ask him questions or talk to him or whatever bullshit. NOPE! sorry not happening. he goes maybe one month 3 years 10 years who knows if we might connect again on that level.. BUT YOU JUST SAID WE NEVER COULD! so whatever im through with him. Oh and the mamaluke has the nerve to tell me that sex doesnt mean anything and its the youth thats making me think it does. sex is just sex adults have sex for fun. motherfucker i am an adult and the day sex becomes meaningless im going to be afraid of myself because sex should NEVER be meaningless! AND MY DUMBASS LET HIM HIT RAW! now i really need to go get checked pronto!
anyways now im done venting. oh wait what else in my life sucks. MY COMPUTER BROKE DOWN AGAIN AND MY DADS BEING A DOUCHE AND NOT BUYING ME A NEW ONE. so im gonna lie to his ass and tell him that im failing analysis n shit because of it and hell buy me a new one i have mine kinda running right now. it runs when it wants to. i wont really fail the course though ill make it work but i wanna make him feel bad because the mamaluke is so gotdamn jewish with his money.
classes are good. ceramics is fun...harder then i thought and i gotta go in all the time outside of class...but fun....analysis is a bitch domestic violence has a lot of outside work and mental illness...well i dont really see where the class is going yet or how we could possibly have a test because all the professor talks about is her life.
i got my hair braided haha. i told people i did it just to see their reactions lol. troy saw it and he came walkin over and felt my head n shit i was like wtf muscles get off the hair haha...oh yea troy...the fucker was like "maybe ill try you out again no promises" in a text message. WTF AM I AN APPLIANCE lol damn. but wutever id let him because the sex was GOOOOOOD lol.
ive been smoking like a motha fuck this whole week! between smoking with jess and meg its killin me but its so much fun! jess and i ended up at this random dudes house in baltimore the other night when we were smoking. of course tovah had to lecture me on how it wasnt safe. i know it wasnt but it was fun and jess and i can hold our own we arent dumb. jess is also cool as shit around guys! some girls arent.
as for everything else...life is chill. im pissed about the isaac shit and it hurts but wutever i shouldnt have let myself like him like i did.
You were all the things I thought of you
And I thought we could be
It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching at the phone
And making me feel we were done
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
isaac is SUCH A DOUCHE BAG! omg who would have thought he was such an angel in the beginning and now hes just a DOUCHE!
fucking mamaluke
he is trying to tell me that we were never in a relationship and that we were just on our way taking our time and whatever it ended up turning into whenever it ended up turing into something thats what it would be. he said that since feelings are involved hes not going to talk to me for a few days because i shouldnt be having any feelings! WTF! HOW COULD I NOT! and then the asshole says (4 days after he said all this) that my friend Jess ruined it for my by calling him and bitching him out even if i didnt know she did it i should control my friends and nothing could ever happen between us and he might call me up randomly to see whats up and see how im doing and i can call him *not everyday* but i can call him to see how he is and to ask him questions or talk to him or whatever bullshit. NOPE! sorry not happening. he goes maybe one month 3 years 10 years who knows if we might connect again on that level.. BUT YOU JUST SAID WE NEVER COULD! so whatever im through with him. Oh and the mamaluke has the nerve to tell me that sex doesnt mean anything and its the youth thats making me think it does. sex is just sex adults have sex for fun. motherfucker i am an adult and the day sex becomes meaningless im going to be afraid of myself because sex should NEVER be meaningless! AND MY DUMBASS LET HIM HIT RAW! now i really need to go get checked pronto!
anyways now im done venting. oh wait what else in my life sucks. MY COMPUTER BROKE DOWN AGAIN AND MY DADS BEING A DOUCHE AND NOT BUYING ME A NEW ONE. so im gonna lie to his ass and tell him that im failing analysis n shit because of it and hell buy me a new one i have mine kinda running right now. it runs when it wants to. i wont really fail the course though ill make it work but i wanna make him feel bad because the mamaluke is so gotdamn jewish with his money.
classes are good. ceramics is fun...harder then i thought and i gotta go in all the time outside of class...but fun....analysis is a bitch domestic violence has a lot of outside work and mental illness...well i dont really see where the class is going yet or how we could possibly have a test because all the professor talks about is her life.
i got my hair braided haha. i told people i did it just to see their reactions lol. troy saw it and he came walkin over and felt my head n shit i was like wtf muscles get off the hair haha...oh yea troy...the fucker was like "maybe ill try you out again no promises" in a text message. WTF AM I AN APPLIANCE lol damn. but wutever id let him because the sex was GOOOOOOD lol.
ive been smoking like a motha fuck this whole week! between smoking with jess and meg its killin me but its so much fun! jess and i ended up at this random dudes house in baltimore the other night when we were smoking. of course tovah had to lecture me on how it wasnt safe. i know it wasnt but it was fun and jess and i can hold our own we arent dumb. jess is also cool as shit around guys! some girls arent.
as for everything else...life is chill. im pissed about the isaac shit and it hurts but wutever i shouldnt have let myself like him like i did.
You were all the things I thought of you
And I thought we could be
It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching at the phone
And making me feel we were done
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending