letter to my broken fantasy
Please listen,
I've got all these words to say and this is the only way I can express them to you
See it's important for you to see the pain you're causing me.
Believe me I'd like to say all of this to you in person but it's too hard when all we do is fight we can't speak seriously neither of us will listen.
So if it's written then you have the choice to acknowledge that this is what's real.
This is me not your fantasy of what you've made me up to be I can only be me and if you're too blind to see then what I'm about to say is going to be so deep you'll have to put it down and read it piece by piece.
Eventually you'll see the relationship we had was broken not as true as we both wanted it to be
You see the snakes were left out of the birds and the bees and when told about love I was under the impression it's beautiful and carefree.
Love is the most powerful emotion God allows us to feel but it's hard to decipher between what's fake and what's real.
When love goes bad the person we come to believe is our "soulmate" may turn into an accquaintance or even worse someone we walk right past on the street and don't speak.
When the two of you realize it's not meant to be it could be too late too much time has been wasted and not put to good use.
When time is so valuable why do people continue to commit themselves to relationships that are bound to be heart break situations can't they see?
I guess what I'm trying to say is in my mind I wanted to love you, I did love you, I may always love you, but my heart can not feel it because all this negativity has torn us apart.
The distance, the lack of communication, the fights, they've drained me.
My life is too precious to be constantly worrying
What's going to happen next?
I will say that I don't feel as if we lived a lie
But I've learned so much from you I value you as a friend.
This shouldn't be the last time we speak but I do know what we had was weak
How dare you ask me for things that in my heart I want to give you then tell me I'm selfish and frontin
With all I have to worry about that's all I need
You're right money comes and goes but it doesn't grow on trees.
But since you say I'm selfish I might as well be I see no other choice you're hurting me
This relationship can't go on we'll only end up hating eachother. Distance is needed its you I don't need
We barely speak, maybe once a week
The most we speak is when you're locked up and now I know its money you seak and second to talk to me
That's not why you should be calling me
Money is what you owe me. I have a good heart and never asked you for that 'G'. But you know you owe it to me
You say eventually but see we don't have that long I met someone who appreciates and respects everything about me
In a short time I've learned more about life, love, and positivity that can only mean if we were destened to be then love might bring you back to me
But in my heart I see us apart. That's real.
I was blinded even when I though I could see.
For two years I lived a fabricated reality where happiness was based on lies all I had to do was tell myself and everyone the truth
And although hard at first now my life is reaching its peak. I'm not falling toward what I thought was the end of a new beginning of happiness. My life was telling me to turn my back on all those who believed in me.
This is selfish I know this but I'm still a baby inside a woman of 20. I have a whole life in front of me.
The clouds now shifted what I said is so true we can no longer be. Life is precious love is a blessing...its not a right but a privledge.
When I tried to be there for you and lift you up you brought me down
can't you see?
This new found life is a second chance for me
If we don't meet on the street remember I'm sorry and please don't feed me negativity
I wanted to love you but in my heart it wasn't there.
I couldn't make it be it was a fantasy
How wonderful it would have been had our love been reality
Love is life and life is worth living
Jencat 8/04
I've got all these words to say and this is the only way I can express them to you
See it's important for you to see the pain you're causing me.
Believe me I'd like to say all of this to you in person but it's too hard when all we do is fight we can't speak seriously neither of us will listen.
So if it's written then you have the choice to acknowledge that this is what's real.
This is me not your fantasy of what you've made me up to be I can only be me and if you're too blind to see then what I'm about to say is going to be so deep you'll have to put it down and read it piece by piece.
Eventually you'll see the relationship we had was broken not as true as we both wanted it to be
You see the snakes were left out of the birds and the bees and when told about love I was under the impression it's beautiful and carefree.
Love is the most powerful emotion God allows us to feel but it's hard to decipher between what's fake and what's real.
When love goes bad the person we come to believe is our "soulmate" may turn into an accquaintance or even worse someone we walk right past on the street and don't speak.
When the two of you realize it's not meant to be it could be too late too much time has been wasted and not put to good use.
When time is so valuable why do people continue to commit themselves to relationships that are bound to be heart break situations can't they see?
I guess what I'm trying to say is in my mind I wanted to love you, I did love you, I may always love you, but my heart can not feel it because all this negativity has torn us apart.
The distance, the lack of communication, the fights, they've drained me.
My life is too precious to be constantly worrying
What's going to happen next?
I will say that I don't feel as if we lived a lie
But I've learned so much from you I value you as a friend.
This shouldn't be the last time we speak but I do know what we had was weak
How dare you ask me for things that in my heart I want to give you then tell me I'm selfish and frontin
With all I have to worry about that's all I need
You're right money comes and goes but it doesn't grow on trees.
But since you say I'm selfish I might as well be I see no other choice you're hurting me
This relationship can't go on we'll only end up hating eachother. Distance is needed its you I don't need
We barely speak, maybe once a week
The most we speak is when you're locked up and now I know its money you seak and second to talk to me
That's not why you should be calling me
Money is what you owe me. I have a good heart and never asked you for that 'G'. But you know you owe it to me
You say eventually but see we don't have that long I met someone who appreciates and respects everything about me
In a short time I've learned more about life, love, and positivity that can only mean if we were destened to be then love might bring you back to me
But in my heart I see us apart. That's real.
I was blinded even when I though I could see.
For two years I lived a fabricated reality where happiness was based on lies all I had to do was tell myself and everyone the truth
And although hard at first now my life is reaching its peak. I'm not falling toward what I thought was the end of a new beginning of happiness. My life was telling me to turn my back on all those who believed in me.
This is selfish I know this but I'm still a baby inside a woman of 20. I have a whole life in front of me.
The clouds now shifted what I said is so true we can no longer be. Life is precious love is a blessing...its not a right but a privledge.
When I tried to be there for you and lift you up you brought me down
can't you see?
This new found life is a second chance for me
If we don't meet on the street remember I'm sorry and please don't feed me negativity
I wanted to love you but in my heart it wasn't there.
I couldn't make it be it was a fantasy
How wonderful it would have been had our love been reality
Love is life and life is worth living
Jencat 8/04