Comments | xion_darkwulf: ... the other times were nothing to this

xion_darkwulf

... the other times were nothing to this

May 12, 2005 21:32

.... this time its real ... i truely am depressed ... and i know it ... i feel Empty and hollow ... i can't even cry it out ... its liek soem weight taht i can't move away .... my life has become so complicated in teh last 2 weeks ... with problems at home and my friends lives and my own future to worry about ( Read more... )

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peacegragon May 13 2005, 05:05:16 UTC

SAM-e try it. it helps.

*hug*

xion_darkwulf May 13 2005, 05:48:51 UTC

i will i asked my mom to help me buy it

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xion_darkwulf May 13 2005, 05:18:59 UTC

its 10:18 ... i don't want to bug your parents

xion_darkwulf May 13 2005, 05:26:06 UTC

... anywasy .... i'm gona go sneak out now and.... yea ... i promise to be safe...

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Re: Ak xion_darkwulf May 13 2005, 19:38:59 UTC

thanks alot nathan ... that image made me smile :P

werkitten May 13 2005, 16:14:50 UTC

*hugs you tightly* Oh Colin, I wish I could be there for you to make you laugh. Please, just remember how much I care about you and cherish this little light in your life. I don't want you to slip away.

And please, try to avoid medication AS LONG AS POSSIBLE. Do NOT take any medicine unless it is completely unavoidable and necessary.
You know what will happen if you take that stuff for too long and then stop taking it? You'll get into even deeper depression. For one thing, such stuff is mostly addictive shit, and for another, your body and soul can take care of themselves.
All you need is the will to carry on. Please, don't give up now.

xion_darkwulf May 13 2005, 19:47:38 UTC

.....*clings to you* i'm trying stefan ... i really really am .... but i do need help ... theres jst alot of shit in my life and i'm a weak stupidkid who can't deal with it all... my good friends Shanti suggested this non perscription herbal medcin to help me and i might try it ... i don't want to feel like this anymore .... i want to be happy.... for myself and for my friends and for you... ............ ill get better ... i allways do ... ill be online tomarow morning theres a LAN party tonight soo ill see ya there *hugs you tighty* loveyou

werkitten May 13 2005, 20:32:05 UTC

Colin, drugs aren't always physically addictive. there is mental addiction too. If you start drowning your sorrow with drugs, then you'll always need them to drown your sorrow in drugs ( ... )

xion_darkwulf May 14 2005, 08:52:51 UTC

i do want to keep going ..... and as i look back today on how i was taht day yesterday ... i'm almost desgusted... *sigh* i have spent my entire life trying to be the best and be stronger than everybody else at least physically ... in hopes that life would forget how weak my emoitions woulden't be seen ...

I'm sorry that i even share my problems with others ... ... and i'm sorry that i never took the time to understand how your life was as well ..... i'm sorry ... i did take soem quiet time for myself... and i'm feeling better ... see ya soon

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scarletlilly105 May 15 2005, 05:59:44 UTC

for the sake of offering a suggestion that my or may not help...a month or so ago I was feeling really depressed and I started writing in an actual journal. Just for my self. I think it also helps to do it by hand, not always on a computer, just more involved. I just sort of poured out all the melodramatic, depressed, insecure, lost feelings. After a while it really started to help. I stoped a week or so ago and managed to get vaugly depressed again, probably my brain proding me with a stick to remind me that it liked getting its thoughts down onto paper. Don't know if it'll help but its worth a try. If you just start writing whats going on in a notebook when you're having a hard time it sort of helps you experience all the emotions but it also lets them get out. It's cleansing somehow.

sorry that went on a bit too long but I'll blame it on sleep deprevation.

I'm always here. I know we don't really spend much time one on one, but I do care about you and want to help if I can.

xion_darkwulf May 17 2005, 05:12:47 UTC

.... *hugs tightly* i love you sweetie ... thanks ... i REALLY want to see you soem more again ... how about this weekend ... unfortunatly we have a band review all saturday so how about sunday afternoon?

scarletlilly105 May 17 2005, 19:59:01 UTC

yeah I'd love to hang out then...any specific suggestions or should we just decide what to do then?

xion_darkwulf May 17 2005, 22:35:51 UTC

how about then ....