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xion_darkwulf

... the other times were nothing to this

May 12, 2005 21:32

.... this time its real ... i truely am depressed ... and i know it ... i feel Empty and hollow ... i can't even cry it out ... its liek soem weight taht i can't move away .... my life has become so complicated in teh last 2 weeks ... with problems at home and my friends lives and my own future to worry about ( Read more... )

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werkitten May 13 2005, 16:14:50 UTC

*hugs you tightly* Oh Colin, I wish I could be there for you to make you laugh. Please, just remember how much I care about you and cherish this little light in your life. I don't want you to slip away.

And please, try to avoid medication AS LONG AS POSSIBLE. Do NOT take any medicine unless it is completely unavoidable and necessary.
You know what will happen if you take that stuff for too long and then stop taking it? You'll get into even deeper depression. For one thing, such stuff is mostly addictive shit, and for another, your body and soul can take care of themselves.
All you need is the will to carry on. Please, don't give up now.

xion_darkwulf May 13 2005, 19:47:38 UTC

.....*clings to you* i'm trying stefan ... i really really am .... but i do need help ... theres jst alot of shit in my life and i'm a weak stupidkid who can't deal with it all... my good friends Shanti suggested this non perscription herbal medcin to help me and i might try it ... i don't want to feel like this anymore .... i want to be happy.... for myself and for my friends and for you... ............ ill get better ... i allways do ... ill be online tomarow morning theres a LAN party tonight soo ill see ya there *hugs you tighty* loveyou

werkitten May 13 2005, 20:32:05 UTC

Colin, drugs aren't always physically addictive. there is mental addiction too. If you start drowning your sorrow with drugs, then you'll always need them to drown your sorrow in drugs ( ... )

xion_darkwulf May 14 2005, 08:52:51 UTC

i do want to keep going ..... and as i look back today on how i was taht day yesterday ... i'm almost desgusted... *sigh* i have spent my entire life trying to be the best and be stronger than everybody else at least physically ... in hopes that life would forget how weak my emoitions woulden't be seen ...

I'm sorry that i even share my problems with others ... ... and i'm sorry that i never took the time to understand how your life was as well ..... i'm sorry ... i did take soem quiet time for myself... and i'm feeling better ... see ya soon

peacegragon May 15 2005, 02:54:18 UTC

you should share your problems with your friends. that's what we're here for. that's the point of friends. everyone has problems and needs people to lean on. as long as you listen to people, they should lsiten to you. we all have to help each other carry the weight of the world ( ... )

xion_darkwulf May 16 2005, 02:59:34 UTC

thanks shanti *hugs tghtly* i love ya to sweetie ... but i agree with stefan ... ill only go to Meds if i get any worse ... i'd feel soo guilty taking mads knowing that there are people who deserve and need what i'm taking A LOT MORE THAN ME!

peacegragon May 16 2005, 03:04:30 UTC

that doesn't make any sense. you're not taking anything from anybody but yourself. depression is a mental illness. if you get a fever you take tylanol or something, don't you? it's the same idea. i can understand being afraid of the chemical ones. i'm certainly not willing to touch them. but when you're hurting, you're hurting others as well. so you should take care of yourself. i'm not saying you have to take meds, i'm just saying you should consider it without bullshit reasoning. and in this case it won't hurt to try, unless your parents are strapped for cash again.

love.

xion_darkwulf May 17 2005, 05:11:58 UTC

well aTM we are a bit low on money but .. if i need it they can get it ... i'm trying to just help myself ... though its not doing as well as i hoped ... if i can't make myself back to my normal "Masked" self by friday ill seek meds.

peacegragon May 17 2005, 05:20:42 UTC

what hell, colin? what have i told you about the mask. i mean, you have one on when you're depressed too... you're just even more touchy-feely these days. that's the main thing i've noticed. get rid of the mask. honestly.

i'm sick of you being so...stupid about it. but that's what happens when you're depressed, i know.

just.. goddamnit, if you take care of yourself, you'll take care of your friends too. please!

love.

okay, this is totally random, but... chibiyukai May 24 2005, 01:14:02 UTC

I can't help it!! I have to say something...

Sometimes, when you share your problems with others, it helps lighten the burden that's on you right now. It sounds (well, looks, since I'm reading this...) as though you have a lot of good friends who care for you and love you. Lots of my friends are going through the same thing right now, and I never know what exactly to tell them to make them feel better... yeah. Okay. Just... take care.

It really helps to post here, huh? ^^ People suddenly rush in and start saying stuff to make you feel better... and it works...

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