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I've finally realized that i might have a place in my sisters home anymore. Last night made it clear when she said a few things as we had a late night arguement. So it seems that i am a burden to her yet she didnt use those exact words it was what she meant. It seems that i made a few mistakes and now i am trying to make up for those mistakes but she doesnt seem to see that or if she does she doesnt make it seem like it. Its been a long time since i thought of just leaving everything and everyone behind in both ways of getting the hell out of here just going somewhere else to start a new life a clean slate yet i have also again thought of ending it all but thats really not an option just a thought that comes and goes really. I find myself in the cross roads where i could either change myself to become someone I'm not or be who i am away from here. It doesnt matter anymore i think..........