I'm lonely
and tired.
I dont mean to be
I just am.
I'm never happy anymore
I dont remember being happy
thats scarey.
I just want a hug
someone to tell me it's all going to be allright.
I just want to feel better.
I want the sun to come out
and to feel better about myself.

I think I hate people.
Majority of them are fake anyway.
Maybe I've fucked up everthing already and none of it can be fixed.
No one seems to be able to do anything now a days.
I guess there just dis intrested in me.
Tired of this place.
I'm falling back into old habits again.
I've got to get out of here....

I guess there are some things you cant change about some people. You interact with them how you interact with them. You meet certain people and they teach you certain things you need to learn ( Read more... )

perhaps forgettin passwords then not bein able to figure out how to get a new one then begin stuck w/o a means to change it is not good. anyways yes.....katsucon was amazing, fma evil ppl was good, we were ninjah. met osh, osh is great. everyone should have an osh. we've finished planning for filler con, and now on to katsucon 08'.(very exicting)

this experiment seems to be a sucess. though me having a large red circle on the bottem of my foot for a day wasnt strange i now know what i was curious to know. i'm not gonna be as cool as sloth and put up pictures, cause well...i dont know how. but last night after i got back from ray/lusts house just before bed i put a semi-large dot on my ( Read more... )

I'm not sure yet what i'm doing. i hate those ppl u see and you feel like the whole reason they are alive is to make u feel bad bout urself. i feel as if i surround myself with them, or they surround me. and they look at me like i'm not, and will not ever be good enough. then i get all down on myself and life just gets horrible. i mean i'm not ( Read more... )

see this is always what happens, i get really down onmyself when i wear the wrong pants to school. they make me feel horrible, they dont frame my shoes right and make me look more fat than i already am. then i dont think i can do much of anything else. then today i wore my tie and the right pants and evertying is better ^.^ dont u see? the pants ( Read more... )

How intresting this weekend has been....me eating my little potato my gma made for me and refecting upon it. I search for the perfect song to decribe this quite entertaining weekend. Goin to ray/lusts house on, I think it was friday was quite fun if I do say so my self. Lake Braddocks homecoming was this past sat. So I went with Envy and Elaine ( Read more... )

I couldnt get to sleep last night until round 3-4 am. So I watch T.V. on my little un-having of cable tv. Have u ever seen those infomercials about 'Walkfits' that apperantly make ur body all in aline and muaf. Those infomercials start to make sense after a while...its kinda creepy...What to eat for breakfest....maybe i'll call up envy and see ( Read more... )

Imagine for a moment that you’re doing something you love to do, the brisk mountain air whipping past your face as you almost run into small children who can’t steer right. The snow sprays your face as your dig your poles into the ground desperately trying to go faster, testing your limits of how difficult the courses you’re willing to go on. I ( Read more... )