rubber-band less
I'm not sure yet what i'm doing. i hate those ppl u see and you feel like the whole reason they are alive is to make u feel bad bout urself. i feel as if i surround myself with them, or they surround me. and they look at me like i'm not, and will not ever be good enough. then i get all down on myself and life just gets horrible. i mean i'm not goin to go physocotic or anything i just would like....actually i'm not even sure what i want. perhaps people to stop judgein me because i'm diffrent, or not as thin or as pretty as them. i hate thin ppl>< they make me want to sream. they way they flaunt there perfect bodies just to make everone else feel merisable. Then the pretty ppl who just...they make me angry and want to punch their face in. I lost my rubber band ring, i think thats what this is all about. i liked that rubber band it fit with everthing. I have a weird ring on my index finger now, its not quite the same...