HEY GUYS!!!

This is long overdue, but oh well.. considering the amount of BUSY i've been, i hope you'll forgive me!

I am, indeed, stupendously busy. I'm in 2 shows, and added a workshop acting class on top of it because they needed someone to be Claire from The Breakfast Club... so in summary, the shows i'm doing are:

1. The Who's Tommy: opens 5 April, ( Read more... )

 Thank god for showers... they can drown your sorrows, mute your fears... so that only you can hear them, feel them...

Just spent a good 30 minutes in my shower...crying. sobbing.

it came on so suddenly, not entirely sure what triggered it.. maybe thinking about my upcoming show...

the only thing i know is what i was crying over.

I need you, grandma ( Read more... )

So... November is going to be Hell Month--like Hell Week in theatre, but a WHOLE MONTH of it. (did my font just change randomly? whoa)

I'm in 2 shows (An Irish Christmas Show with Reno Irish Dance Co., and the Fall Dance Festival for the University) and the rehearsal schedules for them are HORRENDOUS. Meaning i get 2 sporadic days off COMPLETELY the ( Read more... )

having an anxiety attack atm.. been going for a few hours since my mom fucked up my hair dye--dying the parts i didn't want her to and LYING about it. and then i attempted to trim my bands? HA. AHAHA. i'm a fuckwit.

so then i watched RoveLA and omg that was a hoot--i was ROLLING.

and not my anxiety is back. yay. and i have to go to sleep cause ( Read more... )

 Kinda?

Well no, I am, i've just been rather "bleh" towards everything lately--as is the usual i guess if my last posts have anything to say about it. I'm trying to work hard in my 2 college dance classes, and I also added in 2 other classes at my studio just to supplement and keep me moving.

I joined Keisha's "Mission 2Piece" so i can maybe motivate ( Read more... )

 I don't even know how i feel anymore.. all I seem to do lately is hyperventilate, get anxiety attacks and cry. I've felt so alone, no one to talk to IRL or Online and it adds up, you know? Writing scares the shit out of me, i'm terrified to open a fucking word doc because my ideas mock me. I've been stuck in this glass room filed with fog and it's ( Read more... )

 and please put me back together again...

I had my first intake appointment at the mental health clinic today--seemed to go well. I can never tell, tho, with these kinds of people. My next appointment is on tuesday... she asked me a lot of questions--there was crying, admission of guilt, fear, loathing... every feel ever. it was.. idek how i felt... ( Read more... )

Title: A Pain That I’m Used To
Author: xGlitterBabyx
Beta: N/A
Rating: Mature
Wordcount: 533
Warnings: Past Character Death, Mention of Death, Coping, Loss, losing a loved one, Hurt/Comfort, Hurt, Emotional
Pairings/Characters: Adam/Tommy
Disclaimer: I do not own the real people that I stole the names from-I just use them to create my own ( Read more... )

 My grandmother said this to me today in one of her lucid spells. she then followed it up with "That's why I have to die, so i can live it!"

So cute, but made me cry so hard.

She'd been doing so well and then the other day *SNAP* she's so much worse than i'd seen her. in and out, can barely form words, daydreaming, wont eat...

the hospice nurse said ( Read more... )

So i saw my brand new primary care physician today... he's a little odd and unorthodox, but seems better than my old dr who gave no shits about whether i was okay or not. This guy immediately ordered me to get blood work done to check my Thyroid, Blood Count, Cortisol and other things. He also is suggesting (depending on my blood work) EEG ( Read more... )