Today was blah.
We went to the science museum, but I lost the batteries from my camera.
I lost my group.

It was mostly an ew-type day.

Then I felt gross when I got off the bus,
and apparently Ana was locked out, but when she asked to come over,
 I didn't hear the locked-out part.
So I told her no,
I had homework and felt icky.
Then she was in the cold for ( Read more... )

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DisorderRatingParanoid Disorder:ModerateSchizoid Disorder:LowSchizotypal Disorder:HighAntisocial Disorder:LowBorderline Disorder:ModerateHistrionic Disorder:LowNarcissistic Disorder:LowAvoidant Disorder:Very HighDependent Disorder:Very HighObsessive-Compulsive Disorder:High
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How can I begin to describe to you what it feels like to lose hope? To close your eyes and see only a thousand angels spiraling downwards, slamming to the ground with tattered wings? To watch the one whose footsteps you follow stumble and fall, and know that if she trips and struggles to rise that there's no hope for you? To look up and see nothing ( Read more... )

Started at school today; finished now.

If anyone touches me I’ll go insane. They don’t understand what confusion means. All I want to do is sleep. I don’t want to be here. I hate this. I am not comfortable with the Beloved right now; I have no where else to go. I despise myself. I want it all to stop. Make it go away.

I don’t want this to come ( Read more... )

Mood swings.
Up and
d
o
w
n
up and
d
o
w
n.
I feel like I'm going crazy.
I hate this.
Feel sick.
I want the stupid red sharpie.
It would help.
Feel like sleeping;
I have church tonight.
Can't do this.
I can't dp this.
I'm lost
I'm lost
I'm lost
I'm lost
I'm lost.
I'm lost
I'm lost
Save me.

Jillian:
How was I today? Confident? Colorful? Pretty?
You said something about hiding behind makeup.
Well hun, I do the same thing.

Today I felt like eating everything in sight,
then bringing it all back up.
Today I felt like sleeping until I forgot who I was.
Today I felt like saying "screw life" and walking out.
I feel like running.
I want to go to Neko' ( Read more... )

Somehow I was able to forget that yesterday was Valentine's day,
until now.
I didn't even remember who the girl in my speech was,
until now.
Want to know something strange?
When I switch characters, from hurt-but-non-depressed-and-alive Grace
to depression-riddled-suicidal Marissa,
my voice goes from changed to normal.
That's right--
my voice is Joker's.
I ( Read more... )

I feel like crying.
I feel like sleeping.
I feel like puking,
      because all I've done today is eat.
I should get dressed,
shower
wash my hair.
      I won't.
I should work on something,
like my speech or my homework.
      I can't.
I can hardly move my hands enough to type.
I feel like
      I'm packed with lead weights.
My ( Read more... )

I'm not feeling good right now. I'm not in a good place mentally to try and get through all of my messages blogs and stuff at this point.

Sorry guys, I'll try again tomorrow.

Thanks.