Along this thin line... The heart is broken
Well I was going to write in here about how I cant decide whether I want someone to have as my own. Because as much as I want that, I am having fun being single. And doing what I want.
But the actions of the past couple of days makes me wonder if I even have that choice.
What am I supposed to think when I was told by him, "You deserve someone who won't ditch you and will at least call you." And then for like 5 days in a row.. out of nowhere I might add, he does just that.
He says he will call and doesnt when for the past month he would always make sure Im happy. He says we are gunan chill and then goes somewhere else and tells me "Well I was planning on chillen with you, but things came up ya kno?" For 5 days in a row. Dont you think I should take the hint?
The thing is everytime I get upset about it, he always makes it up to me and then does it again. Now I dont know if I should be taking the hint, because it makes me sad. I thought maybe ya he would be nice. Well what the fuck. Of course not.
Now I just feel used. Which is not good. I always fall for the "nice things" people do. So now i dont know what to think. Either he was using me and now hes bored with it so hes gunan be nice to me when he wants. Or hes just got a lot of things to do all of the sudden and alll ofthe sudden doesnt think its a big deal to at least call.? I dont know. I know which one is more likely.
But it makes me sad.
What else is new. People love to be assholes. And make me sad.