My life is over.

I'm so scared.

I haven't been this scared in years and years. Maybe since Brian and I broke up.

I am so ashamed of what I have done, or rather what I failed to do. It was a stupid, stupid, stupid mistake and it has cost me my future, my dreams, all my hope.

I wish I could die, but that wouldn't solve anything. I wish I had never woken up from ( Read more... )

I'm off work for the first time in a week. I actually drove down to my parents house to see them, since I'm starting nursing school again on Wednesday (only 1 class) which will likely interfere with my ability to get away. Plus, Brian expressed to me that if I didn't give him some space, he might go berserk. And yet I'm still up at 3AM in the ( Read more... )

Day 3 (or 4?) or a seven-day-in-a-row-work-streak. It sucks, ESPECIALLY because it's all overnight shifts. Brian was around this whole weekend but I was only awake for about 4-5 hours each day, and then I had to fall back asleep! Blows ( Read more... )

I guess I should figure out how to print out all my LJ posts and just close this sucker down. It ain't doin' anybody no good ( Read more... )

Haven't been on here in almost a year! Wowza ( Read more... )

I read today that people eat because they can't find a way to express themselves. It's one of the causes of emotional eating. So maybe writing will help ( Read more... )

So how do I meet people? I suck suck suck at it. I have one good friend in another city, a loving and kind boyfriend, and two wonderful friends locally (one of whom moved away this morning). I'm such a peoplewhore though. I'm considering being a nurse and wonder if it would help me get some of my need for human contact out of my system. I ( Read more... )

So some bitches at work are talking about me. And it's one of those things where they are talking about something, I hear my name mentioned, and then two of them look at me at the exact same time. I talked to this raging cunt today and passed on to a male colleague (who was to follow up with her) that she's "aggressive and defensive". I later ( Read more... )

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Why's my sister such a dick?

...In other news, perhaps my tea definitely has lots and lots of caffeine in it. Lots. Cuz I am jumping around in my seat and singing songs and all happy and a bit crazypants.