i miss all of my old friends..
i feel like a stranger now.
i want to be who i used to be..
i pretty much miss my old self.
im sorry everyone

well, horray. its over.

i know ill see most of you next year, but the hardest person to miss i know wont. i know it will be hard, but it will be even harder for her. so as i sit here wallowing in self pity i know i have to be strong, if not for myself but for you (you know who you are).

i cant lie and say the year was all amazing, becasue it wasnt ( Read more... )

bah ( Read more... )

oh god. so busy lately. just thought i'd update though.but its going to sound ( Read more... )

wow. an actual update. im as surprised as anyone. geeze. such a depressing last little while.
bah. meh. nothing really to write so ill update tomorrow when theres interesting things to put.

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well your no fucking elvis

god im so sick of feeling crappy that i gave it up. i refuse to feel shitty anymore. i mean everyone knows that the ryan episode was my fault. and every one is rubbing that in my face. my family has been pissing me off more then usual. just god would you please give me  break!

this will be my last ventilation entry this ( Read more... )

what a historical day!

man i love that court kid. well today started with an awakening at 9. my mommy went and picked up court <3 ooh what a remarkable soul.. popcorn eh? lol( that would be an insider right there eh?) lol ANYWAYYS! mommy dropped us off at the bus stationand we looked to see that we still had 45 minutes till our bus came :0 so we ( Read more... )

the whole world is out to fucking get me.. no. im out to get the best things in life and fuck them up. i fucked up the best relationship i had every had because i was horny. i mean fuck. the one person that actually kept me from myself i could never take back. im so afraid that ill fuck up his life worse.. fuck up all the friendships ive made. ( Read more... )

things that are new since i last updated.

any questions? lol
 on a more serious note, school is over,shawna's back, and blue pudding is way cool.

i slept in a box.. well for half of saturday night. we ended up going inside because it was raining way too hard.

oh yes and a very happy birthday to linds. im proud that your old now. lol.

on sunday me ( Read more... )