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the whole world is out to fucking get me.. no. im out to get the best things in life and fuck them up. i fucked up the best relationship i had every had because i was horny. i mean fuck. the one person that actually kept me from myself i could never take back. im so afraid that ill fuck up his life worse.. fuck up all the friendships ive made. speaking of friendships. ohh i fucked up another one for those of you who dont know yet. she hasent talked to me since. im loosing most of the best things in my life. i wouldnt be surprised if shawna stoped talking to me. ive been a horrible friend to her. like the worst. i dont know why she puts up with me. well i have to get get ready for a party.. put my fake smile and fake laughter on.