I feel on the edge of breaking down, for some reason the depression has hit me pretty hard. I'm fighting the urge to take a blade to myself again. It's an urge i haven't had in a long time but it's still so damn hard to ignore, i know what's causing it but that doesn't help with the urges. I still crave it as much as i did two and a half years ago.

hmm so i usually only update this when i have something thoughtfull to say, but i figured i'd do a normal, non-rant update ( Read more... )

bored with my scene, bored with life in general, no i'm not suicidal i just need a change ( Read more... )

i feel live i've grown alot since i first got my other lj My Old Live Journal,
generic war has alot to do with society at the moment, or the way i feel about society at the moment.
its to do with literal war, and the war of consumerism and the rush to be the next big thing.