I honestly can't remember the last time I typed into this thing!  I remember being that weird depressed high school girl who would pour out her heart and pray just a single person would listen.

Well... just a few things have changed.  I'm still weird.  I still have dark thoughts I have to fight.

But now I'm an elite (sub-3 hour) marathoner, married ( Read more... )

Nobody reads this anyways. It's a small way to reach out I guess ( Read more... )

A few years later ( Read more... )

I haven't even looked at this thing in over a year. I decided to get on to look for a post that revealed my cat's age, and of course couldn't help but read a little bit as I scrolled. I feel as if this held on to so much anger, it was one of the few places I could rant somewhat peacefully. The only people who really saw were the friends who ( Read more... )

I used to rant online. Typing was my way of releasing my anger, just screaming out my pain to anybody who was willing to listen. And now......I'm silenced. I have the largest audience lending their ears, and I cannot utter one word on my feelings. Sometimes I just want to open up an account, keep it anonymous. But that would do nothing, for ( Read more... )

I knew I shouldn't have tried to contact her in any way. Things have not changed, and she is nowhere near sorry for what she did. In fact, she accuses me of only thinking about myself!! I told her she's the one who thinks about herself because she didn't care about how anyone would get affected through her decision, and she tells me that I'm ( Read more... )

God's working in me in various areas of my life, and I'm going to stop focusing on what hurts. Hurst is a pretty nice place. Or what I've seen so far. This year (crazy to think it's almost been a whole year) I've always lived around busy areas, right next to I-20. Now I'm next to railroad tracks and I get to hear a train blow the horn every few ( Read more... )

Well, I'm moved in with John and Brenda now. It's really not bad here. My room feels so much bigger, and I can actually fit my mini fridge in it! The closet space is tiny, but I don't have a lot of clothes. Just a lot of stuff, but thank God I have bed raisers ( Read more... )

She acts like everything's ok. I don't know if she'll ever understand how I feel right now. I'll probably change my mind about how I feel later, but this is going to hurt for a very long time ( Read more... )

I'm so sick of this. The one time I think I have my mom back in my life. Now she's packing up, going on to Michigan again. Here's the whole story ( Read more... )