Somewhat
So I really am supposed to be working right now - I'm not, clearly. In fact I am possibly doing the furthest thing from working as I am writing here. Why you ask? Well, I simply can't seem to focus. It might be that I am operating on about three hours of sleep or it might be that I can seem to turn my damn dramatic little brain off.
I should be doing about a thousand of other things. I'm sure there are calls to make, not that I'm really much of a slacker here at work. But I just can't seem to muster the energy to focus on the issues at hand. My thoughts keep wandering to people and places they have no business going. I keep thinking about what ifs and could bes when I should be thinking about the here and now. But let's be honest, the here and now is somewhat dull and boring.
Besides, the here and now for me is current rife with Circuit Breaker applications which is stunningly mind-numbing.
I know I should be comforted with the fact that I am helping people with their lives but honestly some days I'm just saddened that I cannot drink on the job. This would be one of those days....
Not that I don't love my consumers, I do. But I just sort of want to bash my head in today and therefore when I'm talking to them all I'm really thinking right now is how much longer they can talk about whatever it is they are prattling on about right now. Which is really not very nice and contrary to popular belief I really do not like being a big meanie. Well, at least in this case.
Maybe I should just go home...oh wait, I can't because I have to use all of my lovingly acquired time later for my stupid surgery. Fantastic.
Besides, it's not really as though I want to be at home either.
I don't know what I want.
I think that's really at the root of all of my problems - I never know what I want. Not mind you that I will ever admit that in the moment. Oh no, I always rush head-long into things neveryoumind that I have no idea what I'm doing. Brilliant, that's me.
You'd never know how smart I really am...
Speaking of which, I should probably get back to work.
I should be doing about a thousand of other things. I'm sure there are calls to make, not that I'm really much of a slacker here at work. But I just can't seem to muster the energy to focus on the issues at hand. My thoughts keep wandering to people and places they have no business going. I keep thinking about what ifs and could bes when I should be thinking about the here and now. But let's be honest, the here and now is somewhat dull and boring.
Besides, the here and now for me is current rife with Circuit Breaker applications which is stunningly mind-numbing.
I know I should be comforted with the fact that I am helping people with their lives but honestly some days I'm just saddened that I cannot drink on the job. This would be one of those days....
Not that I don't love my consumers, I do. But I just sort of want to bash my head in today and therefore when I'm talking to them all I'm really thinking right now is how much longer they can talk about whatever it is they are prattling on about right now. Which is really not very nice and contrary to popular belief I really do not like being a big meanie. Well, at least in this case.
Maybe I should just go home...oh wait, I can't because I have to use all of my lovingly acquired time later for my stupid surgery. Fantastic.
Besides, it's not really as though I want to be at home either.
I don't know what I want.
I think that's really at the root of all of my problems - I never know what I want. Not mind you that I will ever admit that in the moment. Oh no, I always rush head-long into things neveryoumind that I have no idea what I'm doing. Brilliant, that's me.
You'd never know how smart I really am...
Speaking of which, I should probably get back to work.