Randomness
So I had of course written a perfectly lovely post only to have it destroyed when some furry little someone whom shall remained unnamed decided it was the most opportune time to dance as heftily as she could across my keyboard. Amazingly apt little bugger.
Anyway, I've decided to forgive her as she is currently nibbling on my arm as I try to type this in attempt to make up.
God my life is sad.
At any rate, I had been saying that today was really the oddest mix of delight and disdain. Work was productive as those things go - I got loads done, and even had several people telling me how much they adored me. One guy even wanted to take me out for a steak dinner, I kid you not - it was hilarious. So all in all, having people tell you how amazing you as you change their lives is not so bad, right?
Hmmm, you'd think not.
But there was just this overshadowing murky feeling of bitterness throughout the entire day. I felt snarky the whole time. With every call, every appointment - I just wanted to bash my head against the wall. Oh and then the talk of bad weather started. You'd think I worked with a bunch of children, thrilled at the prospective of just maybe having a snow day. This is Illinois, people, it snows and sleets and rains and the world does not stop rotating!
Oh and then I went to lunch. I went to Steak n Shake - healthy choice, I know, whatever - and was very nice as I asked the man to please give me the fudge I had asked and paid for on my shake and do you know that he told me that he had a lot going on? A lot going on? You work at Steak n Shake! You do not have a lot going on! And if you think you do, well then you need to go sign up for a program - but not my program because I can't help you because clearly you are beyond help.
Now, just for the record, I remained very pleasant and sweet (shut up, it's not that shocking). But I so wanted to scream.
The whole day consisted of me wanting to scream. I still want to scream. But I don't really have the energy.