My last post was of me admitting I was in love with Padraig… I don't even know what to write tonight, except that I have no fucking clue anymore.

Maybe I should have listened when Padraig said he was an asshole. Maybe I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up. It seems like no matter what I get my hopes up about, they always get crushed to dust. With ( Read more... )

I've had a couple of awful days. I feel sick as all hell, all I can do is sleep and my kidney is hurting again. My sister has her AIM status as some people shouldn't cut their hair so short because it makes them look like a man wicked baaaaaaad :) just sayin. I'd like to know how she knows I even cut my hair. She's probably trolling my myspace cuz ( Read more... )

Fuck. I've been awake since 2:30 this morning. I got up to pee and the next thing I knew I couldn't get back to sleep. Now it's 5:33 AM. I ate a bowel of cereal, I smoke a few cigarettes, I turned the tv off and turned on my iPod. Usually my idol boys can put me easily to sleep. Not this time. The only thing I haven't tried is a shower but I don't ( Read more... )

I feel like hitting something, just totally fucking my room up completely. It's a bit irrational but I can't help it.

This is the second week that I've been having sleeping issues. It was about two weeks ago that I stopped using my sunlight. The combination of the light and my new medication was doing so well for me. I slept all night and was ( Read more... )

I hate when my grandmother comes to visit. I get so stressed out b/c she comes and won't tell us how long she's stating or what she's doing. I'm one of those people that needs a plan. She will not give us a plan no matter what. She was only supposed to stay the night or just stop in to potty on her way home from her trip. But now she's staying till ( Read more... )