florida sucks
Mike is in Florida with Rob now... its been a lot harder on me then I thought and its only been like... 2 days. How pathetic of me. Hah. I thought maybe it would be ok once he actually went to FL and I wouldnt worry about what he was gonna do... but now its more like... what hes doing right now. And I really just dont have any positive feelings about it at all. It makes me sick to my stomach thiking about it and im not even thinking of anything specific. Its weird cuz I almost feel bitter about him actually going... maybe its just bitterness towards what Im sure will happen. I dont know. But when he calls its really weird and mixed feelings... I'm glad he calls and excited to talk to him, but at the same time in the back of my head I feel like I want to forget he exists as if we are already broken up again. I donno Im all mixed up.
But Im working all the time... I have two more days of open to 1 shifts and then I leave for Alaska! At least Ill have that... hopefully it will help take my mind off of Mike. I got my new digital camera woo hoo its suweeeeet. Im so excited now! So when I get back from Alaska Ill have 5 days home, basically getting ready for school adn working, and then I have to move back in to Mount... all by myself in that big ol' scary house! and a scary big ol' house at that! Two weeks of CE training, moving in my freshmen, and then back to classes. poop.
But Im working all the time... I have two more days of open to 1 shifts and then I leave for Alaska! At least Ill have that... hopefully it will help take my mind off of Mike. I got my new digital camera woo hoo its suweeeeet. Im so excited now! So when I get back from Alaska Ill have 5 days home, basically getting ready for school adn working, and then I have to move back in to Mount... all by myself in that big ol' scary house! and a scary big ol' house at that! Two weeks of CE training, moving in my freshmen, and then back to classes. poop.