freaking crazy day!

May 18, 2010 22:22

First I went to IT security training and got all freaked out about social networking and privacy. I will have to write more on that another day.

Then I had a long talk with a good friend who has had a tough time with an adviser in grad school. I will call her Jane, because I usually try to be semi-anonymous on this blog and I'm really freaked out about this stuff after this morning. Well, if you are friends with me on FB or LJ, you know this is my blog, but I hope that it is not too easy to find if you aren't already my friend, plus I don't think I have many readers anyways. I think of it more like a publicly accessible way for me to dump all the stuff twirling around in my brain out so other people with the same thoughts or worries may someday find it and see it as useful. But, if you are a hacker or geek person and have a few minutes to waste, can you double check my work and tell me how easy it is to track this blog to me, without using our friendshipness on FB or LJ? That would be awesome. I'm getting a little weirded out by online privacy now...

Anyways, once again I am reminded by Jane about how amazingly compatible being basically a sociopath is with academia, at least, in the sciences. Is this how the whole world is or just what I'm seeing? Argh!!!! It makes me so angry to see these successful science people stomp on and make miserable the people I care about. I know this is a general theme of my blog, but seriously! I really wonder if there is anything to be done about this issue. It is something that really truly bothers me for so many reasons. I feel strongly that, until science changes the culture that permits this sort of outrageously unprofessional behavior, the only women that stay in science will be the male-like women or the women who can morph into male-like. That means that people who are good at science and love it and want to do it, but don't fit into the culture will not stay, and this problem seems to more effect women than men, in my limited sample size. Is that really true? I don't know, but to me, what really matters is that I see how it is affecting the people I care about very negatively and it hurts my soul to know that there are no ramifications for the aggressors.

I guess I should realize by now that there is no justice and fairness and that you can't assume that people are all good and want to do what is right. But I just can't help my outlook on life! I want to think good of people. I want to believe in the goodness of the world. I want rainbows and bunnies and happiness everywhere. Is that so much to ask?

ev

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