This week sucks
I got rejected for my fellowship that I was REALLY wishing I would get.
I ran out of my prescription that helps with my PMS and, since the hours at Wardenberg are weird this week due to fact that it's "spring break", I missed it 3 days in a row. So who knows how much of my feeling bad is my brain or my brain on hormones. Men are so lucky.
My laser is being lame and so I'm behind on my "goals list" for this week, which is supposed to help me graduate. Plus it is so frustrating. I'm so tired of this.
I've had insomnia this week because I have trouble relaxing enough to sleep when I'm overly excited about stuff, and the healthcare bill and trying to convince my online buddies that it's not the end of democracy as we know it is stressful to me. My brain is really good and catching onto something and obsessing with it, thinking about it over and over, ruminating it in my mind. Wish I could put this skill to work at graduating sooner.
My swimming class is not happening this week due to spring break. I miss it.
I also hate myself when I'm depressed, so that makes it worse. I am so lucky. I've had so much opportunity in my life, I shouldn't be so upset about one stupid thing, but I have no control over my emotions. I can't logic myself out of feeling bad about myself. Maybe it's partly hormonal. Who knows. Hopefully it's mostly hormones and my drugs, which I finally just got refilled, will help.
Trying to keep my chin up a little.
I ran out of my prescription that helps with my PMS and, since the hours at Wardenberg are weird this week due to fact that it's "spring break", I missed it 3 days in a row. So who knows how much of my feeling bad is my brain or my brain on hormones. Men are so lucky.
My laser is being lame and so I'm behind on my "goals list" for this week, which is supposed to help me graduate. Plus it is so frustrating. I'm so tired of this.
I've had insomnia this week because I have trouble relaxing enough to sleep when I'm overly excited about stuff, and the healthcare bill and trying to convince my online buddies that it's not the end of democracy as we know it is stressful to me. My brain is really good and catching onto something and obsessing with it, thinking about it over and over, ruminating it in my mind. Wish I could put this skill to work at graduating sooner.
My swimming class is not happening this week due to spring break. I miss it.
I also hate myself when I'm depressed, so that makes it worse. I am so lucky. I've had so much opportunity in my life, I shouldn't be so upset about one stupid thing, but I have no control over my emotions. I can't logic myself out of feeling bad about myself. Maybe it's partly hormonal. Who knows. Hopefully it's mostly hormones and my drugs, which I finally just got refilled, will help.
Trying to keep my chin up a little.