1. Jesus fuck, I have to move in ten days, and I don't even know to where yet. I'm not panicking, precisely. Just about 100% sure that it isn't going to work out, that the people I'm currently waiting to hear back from will blow me off, and I won't be able to find other opportunities because I suck at this and am a general failure at housing stuff ( Read more... )

...feeling unaccountably crappy ( Read more... )

Every time so far that I've dated somebody who didn't have a strong, functional primary relationship at the time, they wound up, in whatever way, leaving me for somebody else they were also dating ( Read more... )

Went to sleep last night at about 7:30, shortly before sunset. Thought it would be a nap; was just too tired and blargh to do anything else.

Woke up around dawn, around 5:30.

Puttered about; went to iHop to food; decided to wander off at random. Wound up, as I usually do when wandering off 'at random,' at Crane's Beach in Ipswich. (I <3 having a ( Read more... )

Yesterday, as I drove up to a date with hoath_iaida, there's a turkey vulture cruising low as I pull onto Route 16. Later, up on the highway near the 93/95 interchange, I see a great blue heron cruising overhead. And when I look up again--I only see it for a moment, but so clearly, before it's obscured by the roof of my car, and I'm in a central lane and can' ( Read more... )

So remember how I said a bit back (#6.5.5) that I should write a big honkin' post on why I'm being drawn to Thelema? I'm tired, I'm bored, I've spent all day browsing related foo on the 'net and have Crowley on the brain, and next time I'm at the temple I'll be asking for both baptism and Minerval apps ( Read more... )

In its place, have icons. Utena + the first line of the Priest in the Gnostic Mass, three attempts thereat, because I just that kind of a dork.


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Tastes great, no drama!

I just discovered, via the delicious Sexoteric, a mindblowingly amazing sex blog. Poetry, stories, autobiographic bits; lush, elegant, kinky, full of magic ( Read more... )

For those who might have heard me bitching about my financial situation, that is all set. I am relatively flush and will not be calling escort agencies any time soon. (Looking into using this to find some sort of place to stay before I go nuts from couch-surfing ( Read more... )

(brief due to RSI flareup ( Read more... )