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so went to the ren fair ... weeee
it was good and now i think i have been to almost as many fairs by myself as i have with other ppl... and not just romantically speaking ... anyone speaking .... and thats sorta sad .. but kinda good too.... cause you can eat what you want and when you want .. even if its walking clear across the venue.... potty when you want .. and linger at or skip the things you want with out worrying your boring who ever your with ....
it was really cold/windy .... which makes being by yourself slightly worse.... no one to keep you warmer or anyone to comerserate with either ...
the the sad thing is really my response to really nice sales ppl ...... i was looking around at a clothing shope ... and the sales guy approched me and asked if he could help me find something ... and i said no im just looking... which he replyed looking for what ... and i said well nothing .... and he asked how could i be looking for nothing ... and i said cause i cant afford to buy anything ... which is true ... at this point .... im sure it was an attempt at flirty bantter that was going very wrong .... so he said something to the effect of i should be able to con any drunk man into do doing whatever i bid him to ...... which i think i said yeah right ... and high tailed it out of the shope .... and also just wanted to cry .... or scream at hime how much i hated men and how little any drunk man ever have two hoots about what i wanted or cared about ... and the ones who were sober i can count on one hand ...... and that i have been bearly able to get a birthday gift out of men who claim to love me much less something expensive out of someone who didnt even know me well and was drunk ......
the nicest of things have come from a few trusted friends rather than anyone else anyway .... this love thing is totally over rated ... whish i could convince myself of that .... things would be so much easier if i could .... *shrugs*
is it so wrong to want a $450 leather dress.... *sighs*
it was good and now i think i have been to almost as many fairs by myself as i have with other ppl... and not just romantically speaking ... anyone speaking .... and thats sorta sad .. but kinda good too.... cause you can eat what you want and when you want .. even if its walking clear across the venue.... potty when you want .. and linger at or skip the things you want with out worrying your boring who ever your with ....
it was really cold/windy .... which makes being by yourself slightly worse.... no one to keep you warmer or anyone to comerserate with either ...
the the sad thing is really my response to really nice sales ppl ...... i was looking around at a clothing shope ... and the sales guy approched me and asked if he could help me find something ... and i said no im just looking... which he replyed looking for what ... and i said well nothing .... and he asked how could i be looking for nothing ... and i said cause i cant afford to buy anything ... which is true ... at this point .... im sure it was an attempt at flirty bantter that was going very wrong .... so he said something to the effect of i should be able to con any drunk man into do doing whatever i bid him to ...... which i think i said yeah right ... and high tailed it out of the shope .... and also just wanted to cry .... or scream at hime how much i hated men and how little any drunk man ever have two hoots about what i wanted or cared about ... and the ones who were sober i can count on one hand ...... and that i have been bearly able to get a birthday gift out of men who claim to love me much less something expensive out of someone who didnt even know me well and was drunk ......
the nicest of things have come from a few trusted friends rather than anyone else anyway .... this love thing is totally over rated ... whish i could convince myself of that .... things would be so much easier if i could .... *shrugs*
is it so wrong to want a $450 leather dress.... *sighs*