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Here is your horoscope
for Tuesday, July 22:
Your dream energy is strong right now and that means that you ought to be able to make serious progress on some ambition of yours. It might get a little crazy, but you can handle crazy!
Ok so this is totally spot on ... to cap on tinas loverly dream sequence a few days ago i have been having some seriously crazy ones myself .... mostly full of being angry or upset ...
sunday night I dreamt that my dad was cheating on my mom .. that she was kind of ok with this .. as in didnt seem upset .. and i was crushed ... though that is totally outo f my dads character .... and hes not acutally doing any of this ... and when i asked my mom how she knew or foundout .. all she said was that she found a chanel box and it wasnt for her...
very vivid .... and it too me until i wokr up to realize that it was a dream .. usually when im like this i know im dreaming at the time and it doesnt impact me so much ... i call my mom ysertday just to make sure everything was alright anyway ....
then after that dream i went back to sleep ... where an ex found out i was upset and was trying to "make me feel better" which was not helping at all .. just made me realize that the whole deal with him was a big mistake .... there are few things i really regret in my life... i mean sure there are things that given the chance to do over i might do differently .. but you know thats life... but he ... he is the exception ... i cant believe i ever wasted so much time energy and money on him.... anyway enough of that .. but needless to say that dream was just as upsetting and i didnt get any real benificial sleep
last night was better... but i did wake up about about 5:30 and then go back to bed for an hour ... in which i had a dream that i was fighting with a co-worker.... one i dont really like ... and these dreams just feed this notion.... and im trying hard to figure out how to deal with her... and i think that for the most part she treats me like everyone else.. and i prolly treat her a littl better for everyone ... well ok everyone thats a female.... the other two office galls dispise her...
the thing i think the dream was feeding on was... that no matter how hard any of the rest of us work at our jobs.. do them well... and so on ... we dont get praised... well ok .. so we will praise one another ... but you know sometimes that feels hallow because you know your doing ot make eachother feel good... and she gurrr... doesnt do half of what she should be doing and does the other half fairly poorly ... and gets praised by the big wigs up above our little park ... mainly cause thats whos ear she can bend.... but it hurts because they tell her what a good job that she is doing and so on .... mainly cause she goes around with a "look-at-me-look-at-me" way of doing things....
the dream was about creating an interprative program... which i can say i might also be feeling a bit insecure about because ... i havent had the oppertunity to do that here... and now that i would i dont know that i would do it all the well so theres that ... but also there a huge things about how we arent suppose to be doing eachothers jobs... and while i am trying really hard not to do things that are her job .. there are part of her job that i do want to learn ... so im trying to do that on my own or in a fashion thats not disruptive.. and not learning from her so much....
but developing and education program is my job and my direct suppervisors job .. and totally not her job... and she got again praise and kudos for this and not even one word spoken to the fact that its not her job and so on... *sighs*
so my dreams have been extremely vivid and mostly upsetting ... the good thing about last night was that for the firat part of the night i sleep sooo much better than the night before... so i dont feel really dead today ... yay ..
for Tuesday, July 22:
Your dream energy is strong right now and that means that you ought to be able to make serious progress on some ambition of yours. It might get a little crazy, but you can handle crazy!
Ok so this is totally spot on ... to cap on tinas loverly dream sequence a few days ago i have been having some seriously crazy ones myself .... mostly full of being angry or upset ...
sunday night I dreamt that my dad was cheating on my mom .. that she was kind of ok with this .. as in didnt seem upset .. and i was crushed ... though that is totally outo f my dads character .... and hes not acutally doing any of this ... and when i asked my mom how she knew or foundout .. all she said was that she found a chanel box and it wasnt for her...
very vivid .... and it too me until i wokr up to realize that it was a dream .. usually when im like this i know im dreaming at the time and it doesnt impact me so much ... i call my mom ysertday just to make sure everything was alright anyway ....
then after that dream i went back to sleep ... where an ex found out i was upset and was trying to "make me feel better" which was not helping at all .. just made me realize that the whole deal with him was a big mistake .... there are few things i really regret in my life... i mean sure there are things that given the chance to do over i might do differently .. but you know thats life... but he ... he is the exception ... i cant believe i ever wasted so much time energy and money on him.... anyway enough of that .. but needless to say that dream was just as upsetting and i didnt get any real benificial sleep
last night was better... but i did wake up about about 5:30 and then go back to bed for an hour ... in which i had a dream that i was fighting with a co-worker.... one i dont really like ... and these dreams just feed this notion.... and im trying hard to figure out how to deal with her... and i think that for the most part she treats me like everyone else.. and i prolly treat her a littl better for everyone ... well ok everyone thats a female.... the other two office galls dispise her...
the thing i think the dream was feeding on was... that no matter how hard any of the rest of us work at our jobs.. do them well... and so on ... we dont get praised... well ok .. so we will praise one another ... but you know sometimes that feels hallow because you know your doing ot make eachother feel good... and she gurrr... doesnt do half of what she should be doing and does the other half fairly poorly ... and gets praised by the big wigs up above our little park ... mainly cause thats whos ear she can bend.... but it hurts because they tell her what a good job that she is doing and so on .... mainly cause she goes around with a "look-at-me-look-at-me" way of doing things....
the dream was about creating an interprative program... which i can say i might also be feeling a bit insecure about because ... i havent had the oppertunity to do that here... and now that i would i dont know that i would do it all the well so theres that ... but also there a huge things about how we arent suppose to be doing eachothers jobs... and while i am trying really hard not to do things that are her job .. there are part of her job that i do want to learn ... so im trying to do that on my own or in a fashion thats not disruptive.. and not learning from her so much....
but developing and education program is my job and my direct suppervisors job .. and totally not her job... and she got again praise and kudos for this and not even one word spoken to the fact that its not her job and so on... *sighs*
so my dreams have been extremely vivid and mostly upsetting ... the good thing about last night was that for the firat part of the night i sleep sooo much better than the night before... so i dont feel really dead today ... yay ..