Go Away Anxiety Brain, Please
Ugh, I'm afraid to fall asleep. Stupid anxiety. I have some tension in my forehead and around my eyes that have been bothering me for the past month. Crazy thing is when I'm not anxious or if I'm in a really good mood- nothing. But the second I start a wondering about anything other than sunshine and ponies, "WHAM!" headaches, pressure and occasionally a sharp pain on the sides of my eyes. I know the tension and strain are from stress, but I can't control it.
I'm too afraid it'll be something I can't catch or prevent in time. That's become the trigger or fear these days. What if it's serious and I didn't notice in time. Boom, that's it.
And no, I don't need an unhelpful list of all the ways life can surprise you.
I just want to feel safe. Or maybe happy, even. Man, I'm so lonely. It's been months since I saw most of my friends. The couple I did see for Memorial Day was pleasant, but it's like visiting family in Illinois. So rare and only so little time to catch up.
I'm too afraid it'll be something I can't catch or prevent in time. That's become the trigger or fear these days. What if it's serious and I didn't notice in time. Boom, that's it.
And no, I don't need an unhelpful list of all the ways life can surprise you.
I just want to feel safe. Or maybe happy, even. Man, I'm so lonely. It's been months since I saw most of my friends. The couple I did see for Memorial Day was pleasant, but it's like visiting family in Illinois. So rare and only so little time to catch up.